Category: Human Design

The problem isn’t that we don’t know this. We know we are here to live our own lives, on our own terms. We are not here to be led by the nose. Nor are we here to live out our parents’ dreams or be the dream for our spouse.

We do know we are not here to be told what to do.

But we get scared and we want to be told. Because we think, this is how we can avoid pain, loss, and suffering.

Or we’ve been punished for doing it our way.

Or we don’t want to deal with the consequences of being different, not meeting someone’s expectations.

So many of us are simply explaining (which morphs into more defending) something that we understand from our inner core. And not by any stretch of logic. We know, we just can’t explain it.

We also live in a society that measures and rewards success in specific ways. Groomed to fear the loss of support, etc. It makes sense since we’re living in a very materialistic and tribal age, this Cross of Planning global cycle.

How many times have kids been told what to study, what they cannot be, or “that’s not what good people do”, etc?

Some of our fear is biological. We are vulnerable as mortal beings, so far removed from our instincts. I mean, maybe in times of crisis and emergency, some of that are put to the test and we learn yes, hey, we can take care of ourselves. We do know which way to run, or head to. Just like the elephants. Mostly, we don’t know and we get hurt easily. We can feel pain intensely.

One of the worst conditioning is the belief that we have to figure it out by a certain age.

It – what work to do, who we are, what kind of person we are, our mission this life, our purpose, life itself. Why are we here?

Wow, what a burden to place on kids. And ourselves. To have it figured out, enough to choose a major in college, enough to adult it before their Saturn Return (around 28-30), enough to navigate our Uranus Opposition…

And to figure it out with our mind. Gah!

Our mind is powerful. It’s wonderful. Wondrous. It is rather a miracle.

What it can’t figure out are all these things, which unfold over time as we walk our path.

The mind also cannot see our path.

In Human Design, there are concepts that explain why that is. The mechanics of life.

When at age 30, 40, or even 50, and we haven’t figured it out, we feel like failures, we get labelled as failures. We feel like we’ve let everyone down – ourselves, our spouse (if we have one), our parents, our boss, our kids..our cat.

We know we aren’t here to be told what to do.

And many of us are not even wired to figure it out with our mind. We don’t have a strategic mind and the more we try, the more it hurts and the more frustrated, bitter, angry, and disappointed we feel. It can be a downward spiral and understanding this can be so profound. This is a reason I do love Human Design. It shows how a good portion of the population are different, why we are different, and that the role models we see out in the world just are not for us.

We know we are here to live as who we are.

In a crunch, in a crisis, when you’re so exhausted from living from who you are not, who you think you are/need to be/should be, who you’ve been conditioned to be, the who with all the masks, do you truly believe that? Or do you succumb just a little, to get some of the benefits society provides?

It takes incredible courage and self love to walk our own path. To trust that the path will appear as we walk it. And not to heed others’ dissenting calls, ridicule, and heckling from the back of the room and stay on path.

And also enough humility to heed good guidance.

Motivation in Human Design doesn’t mean what we think it means.

It is not what motivates us or drives us.

It is not how we make decisions.

Projectors & Motivation

The messenger of Human Design spoke about how using Motivation as a signpost is especially important for Projectors.

Why?

Projectors connect with others through invitation.

An invitation is not a willy-nilly off-hand comment. It is as sacred as inviting a vampire into your home.

This means recognizing who this person is and formally and intentionally inviting them into your aura and to guide you. Projectors are here, after all, to guide. (And please don’t mix that up with lead – not the same.)

Some creative people have extended this vampire analogy to say that Projectors are energy vampires. (We all know that a vampire must be invited in to enter your home, yeah?)

It is true that Projectors are not energy beings, like Generators/Manifesting Generators and Manifestors. Projectors are here to be conditioned – conditioned correctly – and that includes receiving energy from the people who are right for them.

Who’s right for them?

People who recognize them as who they are and invite them. And people who then the Projectors, through their own internal radar, decide if they are, at this time, right for them. A Projector may be a pure Individual (only has Individual channels) and someone believes they are here to support them is not recognizing them. Individual are here to empower, which is very different from “support”, the keynote of the Tribal Circuitry. This is a simplistic example, mind you.

Correctness is not a reflection of value or worth. It is not a reflection of how “good”, “bad” or any other descriptions you can give a person. It’s simply alignment, which is the right people, at the right time, in the right place.

So back to why Motivation is an important signpost for Projectors.

Projectors are not here to respond as their way to navigate life. That’s the Generators and Manifesting Generators and they can respond to external stimuli pretty much all the time. Note that this doesn’t mean it’s a yes for them all the time. They too have an internal radar to know if the decision is a yes or a no. Or a “not sure yet”.

And decisions are what take us down our path in life. Decisions can take us off track, decisions can get us back on track.

If you’re living out your Strategy—what you’re getting is this constant affirmation. That’s why I call them signposts. They keep on reminding you that you’re doing a good job.

For non-energy Types, it’s one of the most important things of all. If they don’t have their signposts, they’re desperate. After all, energy Types living out their Strategy moment-by-moment have more opportunities for affirmation than non-energy Types. And you have to see that for the non-energy Type, that when they’re operating correctly, if they’re a Projector it doesn’t mean they’re going to receive an invitation all the time. And yet, if they’re operating correctly and they do go through their process and the invitations come, as each invitation comes there’s this, ―Yeah, it works. That’s what signposts are all about. – Ra Uru Hu

(Not to make it even more complex – decisions we think we are making are actually what’s surfaced from an inner guidance system and this system relies on our frequency being correct – it’s kinda of an egg-or-chicken scenario, except not – an instant and yet moment-by-moment manifestation loop.)

We use signposts to track whether we are on our path or not. Signposts are resistance and the not-self theme and Signature for each of the four Aura Types. Resistance may be posting what the mind thinks it’s a delicious post on social media, only to lose it entirely.

Invitations for Projectors don’t come all the time so they may not get these signposts as readily. That’s why Motivation as a signpost for Projectors is so important.

What is Motivation?

To understand how, let’s find out what Motivation is.

Motivation is what comes out of us, when we share with other people. It is part of our Outer Authority. Our expression.

We can observe if it is in transference or not. Transference indicates a shift of our signature or home frequency. A shift means that how we are taking in information and processing it is off. This affects our decisions, because we are distorted. Note the transference and pause. Pause and don’t jump into a decision.

Important to remember – Motivation will transfer. It’s like seeing the contrast to finetune our understanding of what our Motivation is, to be attuned to our frequency. We become more and more aware of when it is in transference. This awareness is part of the “training” of the mind to see without distortion. For us to sit at the back of our vehicle, and be. See as the Passenger Consciousness.

You may have heard about fractals. Many people bring it up to illustrate why some people have more impact than others. According to Rave Cosmology, at the beginning there was a great shattering of the two prime Crystals. The trillions of zillion pieces (let’s say countless) seeded the universe and we each have two such pieces.

If we freeze that moment after the shattering, we can see the fractal lines, how the crystals split and the centre piece. Mind you, the centre isn’t the middle; it’s that piece that retains the characteristics, the same potential of the whole crystal before the shattering. It is the microcosm and from here, we have the fractal lines and the flow direction of information. From the centre down different fractal lines.

Fractal lines & Impact

It may feel like we can be impacted by just anyone. To be truly impacted, however, the person contains a crystal from the same fractal line as you. The closer, the deeper that impact, whether that is to receive from them or to externalize to them.

So Human Design is about aligning us with our fractal line. This is another reason why we don’t rely on the mind to make decisions. The mind cannot see these lines and so does not know how to find these people.

The most important people to me are not the ones closest to the centre. It’s the ones closest to me on my fractal line. You see, there is no hierarchy; a crystal closer to the centre isn’t “better”. It’s only better to the one next to it. Each crystal on a fractal line is important; we all contribute to the evolution of consciousness. We are each a unique filter and we decode the neutrinos and transform consciousness. This means the information travelling along the fractal line changes, which brings me to the next sub-topic.

Fractal Line & Awakening

Human Design reminds us of “no choice.” An easy way to see this is with fractals. As we transform consciousness, awakening moves along the fractal line. Awakening doesn’t come from what we do, what we train our mind to do, or whether we are “old souls”; it’s where we are on the fractal line in relation to the point of awakening. We were all there at the beginning; our crystals anyway. We are all 15 billion years old, give or take a few in that estimate.

When we look outward, and perhaps even in our life while in our Human Design experiment, we may see suffering. We may think, “if only…” and yet, there is no choice. Awakening happens when it happens. Perhaps this understanding can help us all be more compassionate and accepting of where we all are and how well we are just watching the movie of life.

About Ra

If you frequent Facebook groups, for instance, you may have come across the topic of listening and hearing Ra Uru Hu who “brought” Human Design to us. There are passionate people on both sides. Some people struggle with him as he meanders in his lectures or with how he says things, being a Heretic (5/1 with Cross of Clarion – ah that Gate 51 of shock). An often used reason is that a person is or isn’t on his fractal. That may be the case…however, let’s consider another factor – conditioning.

We are all highly conditioned, even those with lots of definition in their design. The world is mostly not-self, still with the 7-centred strategic consciousness. Even if we’ve done a lot of self-work, that mind…that mind is so powerful and it can be sneaky and even manipulative. Our mind is wonderful in its actual role of observing, dreaming, measuring, and as our outer authority. It’s a beautiful thing.

As we are each unique, so too our deconditioning process and our own Human Design experiment. Years of deconditioning isn’t a guarantee that we are not still using our mind to make decisions and that we have completely surrendered to our body consciousness and our vehicle. It really is a continuing process. How we’ve been conditioned can account for so many things, our preferences, our beliefs, our sensitivity, our wounding…

So if we are conditioned (or unaware of it) and if we have been learning our design piecemeal with our mind, there is a danger that our mind is still ruling the roost. It may be telling us that this is not how we receive information or that this person is too gloomy and negative or that this other person is more optimistic, feminine, and spiritual. I’ve seen many people dismiss the mechanics of Human Design because what Ra has said about 2027 doesn’t resonate with them. 2027, let’s remember, is what he’s called the cosmic fairytale. Even he’s said, we will see if the mutation will take. Let’s leave that for another day.

It’s YOUR deconditioning and YOUR Human Design experiment so I’m not here to tell anyone that Ra really doesn’t ruffle your feathers and that it “should be” easy for you to listen, hear, and digest what he’s transmitting. I’m not here to argue his case. I do enjoy listening to him myself and I can understand the frustration that you basically have to listen to a whole swath of his recordings to piece things together. And yes, he did mis-speak and mixed certain terms up from time to time.

What I’m offering, as something I’m experiencing more and more, is that the most important part of our experiment is the experiment itself. It isn’t reading and researching, and that’s HUGE coming from a 1/3! I still read, a lot and I still listen, a lot. I still get readings here and there, as I respond. As I proceed in my own experiment, I’m becoming more and more humble. I’m more and more comfortable with not being certain mentally (hello there, open Ajna) and I’m more and more comfortable with not chasing every freakin’ question (hey you, open Head).

So perhaps a question is where does this frustration come from? Are you looking for certainty? Are you placing knowledge above the actual experiment? These are questions that have come up for myself.

For me, it doesn’t really matter why this or that. The mind will still continue to find reason and rationalization. That’s really its attempt to be safe, and yeah, not be ridiculed by others. My body just leaves the room. I don’t know why. My mind wants to give a reason as not to appear rude, because that’s really frowned upon and we’ve been conditioned to be polite, nice, and good.

That reason and rationalization may be pulling out specific characteristics, whether it’s a gate, our profile, a circuitry, etc.

Yet, is it?

When we are living who we are, we move beyond the characteristics. The costume that is our profile may fit more comfortably and feels easier on us. But it is still only a costume. The thing that really happens is with our frequency. It’s clearer, less distorted and our mind is way more relaxed.

My undefined Solar Plexus has been defined via transits. First with the full 35/36 channel. Then Gate 49 connected my Gate 19 and now Gate 30 connecting my Gate 41.

With my partner having a defined solar plexus I’ve come to understand emotional authority in deeper ways. One thing I know for sure is to take time to experience the entire emotional wave. The high highs and the low lows and share when I’m ready. Prematurely sharing, like when I’m emotionally low, frustrated, sad, etc, thwarts the natural process and rhythm. I’ve learned to trust that when he is ready to share, when he has more clarity, he will. This is how as a 1/3 I’ve broken and re-made our bonds in significant ways. In the past, bonds have been broken but not necessarily remade as I and my romantic partners, friends, business partners, etc did not understand the nature of the 1/3. I was frustrated, saddened, and confused. This is one example of how Human Design has brought clarity, understanding, and acceptance for me.

So when I realized my solar plexus was defined, I observed how I felt and to sit through the emotional wave. I was already triggered by some stuff earlier so it was very challenging. It was uncomfortable, overwhelming. I thought I felt my partner withdraw, emotionally, physically. And when we spoke about it, he said he didn’t and wasn’t.

What I had known and realized but didn’t really realize was that my gates in the solar plexus are themes of how I experience definition here. How the energy flows. I have three moody gates here. The 6 is intimacy or not and what I realized, when I was in the shower (thank god for showers!), is that it was me who was shutting the door on intimacy. I didn’t feel or receive the energy because my own door was closed.

With this clarity, we had another discussion and all this stuff came up. Including how I was judged for being moody, when it was just the energy moving through the gates. Basically he said, no one will judge you for needing to say, “humanity sucks. People suck.” Well I don’t believe that. I did say, some of my ex’s suck. Their behaviour was shitty and I was tired of being the understanding person, understanding the trauma that drove their shitty behaviour. No matter the reason, their behaviour was shitty. It’s okay, my little open heart centre – we don’t need to prove I’m a good person, I don’t need to be “nice” or understanding. They may be wounded and unaware; their behaviour is still shitty.

Sometimes a breakdown is really a breakthrough.

I’m reading my 127-page Vedic Astrology report I got circa 2007. I unearthed it going through my storage. I’m on page 17. By the way 17 in Jin Shin Jyutsu is the number for Aquarius (my Personality Sun Sign), helps calm the nervous system, and brings emotional-mental clarity. 17 is located on the outside of the wrist, on the little finger side. I like to wrap my hand, with it sitting nicely on the palm of the other hand, thumb on the mound below the thumb – try it!

1 + 7 = 8, magic. Did I discover some Magic here? I believe so.

What I found absolutely fascinating how so much of it jives with my Design. The section I’m at is “What Your Soul Truly Desires.”

My Line 1

You’ll be hard to get to know. You are often seen withdrawn. This being so, it is common for people to see your focus turn inside of yourself.

My Line 3 – Freedom & Adventure

Freedom, as this Vedic Astrologer advices, is about living a fuller life, a richer life, rather than breaking standards of living or being excessively unconventional. For me, breaking standards is inevitable though I have observed my younger self pushing people’s buttons, just because. I see that in others, in my clients, those who have been unseen, unheard, unloved. Some behave radically to get attention they desire. Some do it to prove they are beyond the fray and so approval is not required or desired. Human behaviour, for me, so often comes back to a person’s wound.

Freedom is seen to being most essential for your inner happiness. You’ll thus be found loving changes, new experiences, to that of you desiring to meet new people, being involved in adventures and travels.

You will experience many changes and unusual events, but you learn best through your own experiences. Therefore your life will be full and, you will make great strides in personal growth.

Manifesting Generator

Routine can easily become a bore to you, regardless of your work or activities. Yes, you will not be at your best, if you are forced to do work or be forced, to remain in a place which is always the same.

You enjoy being involved in several projects at the same time. You’ll thus, tend to discard boring pastimes, very quickly.

The advice by this Vedic Astrologer is to recognize that I am feeling restless. Rather than releasing that energy by being rash and doing something for the sake of doing something (hello undefined root!), it will be worthwhile to channel it consciously. And to refrain from tearing things down or criticizing others! Transcending this balance, he goes on to say, will allow me to accomplish things. This is interesting, because on the one hand, I’m a 1/3, life is about bumping into things (following my Strategy & Authority) and on the other, there’s a certain trajectory if I’m not led by my undefined root, for example.

Open Heart Centre & Cross of the Sphinx

You are a bit of a heroine and thus, you’ll desire to save the world. This causes you to make promises you often cannot keep. Down deep, you’ll long to please everyone, of which I can assure you is indeed, an impossible goal.

Undefined Solar Plexus – this one I found interesting. I often see this dialogue about people with a defined and undefined solar plexus feel. So perhaps as someone with an undefined solar plexus, I may come across as a bit more “shallow”, less moody, unless I’m amplifying. Well, I do have a number of Gates of Melancholy.

You can be seen, to you being rather emotionally superficial. Yes, you’ll feel love passionately.

Oh, he advises me to wear pastels, pinks, cherry… as I look at my wardrobe of grey!