The problem isn’t that we don’t know this. We know we are here to live our own lives, on our own terms. We are not here to be led by the nose. Nor are we here to live out our parents’ dreams or be the dream for our spouse.
We do know we are not here to be told what to do.
But we get scared and we want to be told. Because we think, this is how we can avoid pain, loss, and suffering.
Or we’ve been punished for doing it our way.
Or we don’t want to deal with the consequences of being different, not meeting someone’s expectations.
So many of us are simply explaining (which morphs into more defending) something that we understand from our inner core. And not by any stretch of logic. We know, we just can’t explain it.
We also live in a society that measures and rewards success in specific ways. Groomed to fear the loss of support, etc. It makes sense since we’re living in a very materialistic and tribal age, this Cross of Planning global cycle.
How many times have kids been told what to study, what they cannot be, or “that’s not what good people do”, etc?
Some of our fear is biological. We are vulnerable as mortal beings, so far removed from our instincts. I mean, maybe in times of crisis and emergency, some of that are put to the test and we learn yes, hey, we can take care of ourselves. We do know which way to run, or head to. Just like the elephants. Mostly, we don’t know and we get hurt easily. We can feel pain intensely.
One of the worst conditioning is the belief that we have to figure it out by a certain age.
It – what work to do, who we are, what kind of person we are, our mission this life, our purpose, life itself. Why are we here?
Wow, what a burden to place on kids. And ourselves. To have it figured out, enough to choose a major in college, enough to adult it before their Saturn Return (around 28-30), enough to navigate our Uranus Opposition…
And to figure it out with our mind. Gah!
Our mind is powerful. It’s wonderful. Wondrous. It is rather a miracle.
What it can’t figure out are all these things, which unfold over time as we walk our path.
The mind also cannot see our path.
In Human Design, there are concepts that explain why that is. The mechanics of life.
When at age 30, 40, or even 50, and we haven’t figured it out, we feel like failures, we get labelled as failures. We feel like we’ve let everyone down – ourselves, our spouse (if we have one), our parents, our boss, our kids..our cat.
We know we aren’t here to be told what to do.
And many of us are not even wired to figure it out with our mind. We don’t have a strategic mind and the more we try, the more it hurts and the more frustrated, bitter, angry, and disappointed we feel. It can be a downward spiral and understanding this can be so profound. This is a reason I do love Human Design. It shows how a good portion of the population are different, why we are different, and that the role models we see out in the world just are not for us.
We know we are here to live as who we are.
In a crunch, in a crisis, when you’re so exhausted from living from who you are not, who you think you are/need to be/should be, who you’ve been conditioned to be, the who with all the masks, do you truly believe that? Or do you succumb just a little, to get some of the benefits society provides?
It takes incredible courage and self love to walk our own path. To trust that the path will appear as we walk it. And not to heed others’ dissenting calls, ridicule, and heckling from the back of the room and stay on path.
Motivation in Human Design doesn’t mean what we think it means.
It is not what motivates us or drives us.
It is not how we make decisions.
Projectors & Motivation
The messenger of Human Design spoke about how using Motivation as a signpost is especially important for Projectors.
Why?
Projectors connect with others through invitation.
An invitation is not a willy-nilly off-hand comment. It is as sacred as inviting a vampire into your home.
This means recognizing who this person is and formally and intentionally inviting them into your aura and to guide you. Projectors are here, after all, to guide. (And please don’t mix that up with lead – not the same.)
Some creative people have extended this vampire analogy to say that Projectors are energy vampires. (We all know that a vampire must be invited in to enter your home, yeah?)
It is true that Projectors are not energy beings, like Generators/Manifesting Generators and Manifestors. Projectors are here to be conditioned – conditioned correctly – and that includes receiving energy from the people who are right for them.
Who’s right for them?
People who recognize them as who they are and invite them. And people who then the Projectors, through their own internal radar, decide if they are, at this time, right for them. A Projector may be a pure Individual (only has Individual channels) and someone believes they are here to support them is not recognizing them. Individual are here to empower, which is very different from “support”, the keynote of the Tribal Circuitry. This is a simplistic example, mind you.
Correctness is not a reflection of value or worth. It is not a reflection of how “good”, “bad” or any other descriptions you can give a person. It’s simply alignment, which is the right people, at the right time, in the right place.
So back to why Motivation is an important signpost for Projectors.
Projectors are not here to respond as their way to navigate life. That’s the Generators and Manifesting Generators and they can respond to external stimuli pretty much all the time. Note that this doesn’t mean it’s a yes for them all the time. They too have an internal radar to know if the decision is a yes or a no. Or a “not sure yet”.
And decisions are what take us down our path in life. Decisions can take us off track, decisions can get us back on track.
If you’re living out your Strategy—what you’re getting is this constant affirmation. That’s why I call them signposts. They keep on reminding you that you’re doing a good job.
For non-energy Types, it’s one of the most important things of all. If they don’t have their signposts, they’re desperate. After all, energy Types living out their Strategy moment-by-moment have more opportunities for affirmation than non-energy Types. And you have to see that for the non-energy Type, that when they’re operating correctly, if they’re a Projector it doesn’t mean they’re going to receive an invitation all the time. And yet, if they’re operating correctly and they do go through their process and the invitations come, as each invitation comes there’s this, ―Yeah, it works. That’s what signposts are all about. – Ra Uru Hu
(Not to make it even more complex – decisions we think we are making are actually what’s surfaced from an inner guidance system and this system relies on our frequency being correct – it’s kinda of an egg-or-chicken scenario, except not – an instant and yet moment-by-moment manifestation loop.)
We use signposts to track whether we are on our path or not. Signposts are resistance and the not-self theme and Signature for each of the four Aura Types. Resistance may be posting what the mind thinks it’s a delicious post on social media, only to lose it entirely.
Invitations for Projectors don’t come all the time so they may not get these signposts as readily. That’s why Motivation as a signpost for Projectors is so important.
What is Motivation?
To understand how, let’s find out what Motivation is.
Motivation is what comes out of us, when we share with other people. It is part of our Outer Authority. Our expression.
We can observe if it is in transference or not. Transference indicates a shift of our signature or home frequency. A shift means that how we are taking in information and processing it is off. This affects our decisions, because we are distorted. Note the transference and pause. Pause and don’t jump into a decision.
Important to remember – Motivation will transfer. It’s like seeing the contrast to finetune our understanding of what our Motivation is, to be attuned to our frequency. We become more and more aware of when it is in transference. This awareness is part of the “training” of the mind to see without distortion. For us to sit at the back of our vehicle, and be. See as the Passenger Consciousness.
A huge lesson in my experiment is trust my intuition.
You’ve probably heard this said a whole bunch of times.
The thing is, as you decondition and see your not-self in action, you see these not-self themes in more subtle and pervasive ways. Yes, it can feel overwhelming, like is there no end, and what’s the point.
If you’re feeling this, you’re not alone. Many people come to this place, and not just the one time.
Many people share that a couple of years of being in their Experiment is when it seems to get more challenging. It’s because we are starting to see more, including how we’ve built up our identity and how we’ve contorted ourselves to fit into the world…
This is why nourishing our spirit and truly being anchored in self love are so important as we go deeper into the deconditioning process. And also, having a good sense of humour. I think especially for Line 3s. Because we are going to see more, more of the not-self world and it can be very lonely. There’s no shame in this. Many people don’t like to talk about the shadow work, the challenges of deconditioning…it doesn’t sell well to the mainstream, where Human Design has found a place.
So back to the huge lesson in intuition.
I’m an acoustic being. It’s my individual circuitry, it’s my line 3, it’s a few aspects of my Design.
I’m a 34-20 Sacral Manifesting Generator and I can move really fast. It’s important to check in, after dipping my toe, to see if the response is really there. My Spleen is defined with one Gate, 57, an acoustic Gate. And sometimes I move so fast I don’t take note of the first intuitive hit, so taking a pause is key.
Going too fast, what else?
I think the not-self themes of my open centres are obvious. Not-self themes of undefined centres are one of the first things we learn about. Of course, seeing them in action may take time, and also, quite frankly, honesty.
That open Heart Centre, right?
Mine is completely open and has no Gates pointing to it. So, no pressures on it. It takes specific transits and Ego-defined people to define it so the lessons and its actions are less obvious than say my two undefined centres which have many opportunities to be conditioned. So we can override our intuition because we don’t want to rock the boat, we want to prove we are the right person for the job, we are intelligent and make sense, etc.
What else? What about Line 1? Line 1 is inherently introspective, inward-looking, insular, and always looking for a foundation. And insecure.
It becomes secure by having a solid foundation and it does this through investigating and gathering information. The not-self theme of Line 1 is investigating everything, so it feels secure. It’s investing life force even in what’s not for them. Line 1s can hide behind information and knowledge to feel secure or feel secure because of their collection of intel.
And so, because of the attraction of new information, a Line 1 can get pulled in by people who come across as authorities, experts, and anyone who has leading edge information. Now, these people may have solid info, or they may not. And even if they do, if a person’s personal authority is a no, this person isn’t for them. If you struggle with this, check to see what your mind stories are and review the not-self themes of your aura type and undefined centres as well as bridging gates. What are you trying to get rid of? What is the reward for going ahead with spending money on these people your body’s like no?
This is what I’ve learned. I’ve struggled with certain people. They may be experts, many of them are even better marketers. But my response to them is a no. I’ve investigated it a bit further, and listened to them speak. It’s very clear there’s a lack of acoustic attunement. They sound off to me. Icky. Now, this isn’t about them as people. It’s about me trusting in my process, trusting that the information I require will show up and I don’t need to push against the river, so to speak.
If a person isn’t for me, their Outer Authority isn’t for me and I won’t be able to hear them. I won’t get what is for me.
So, pausing and checking in with myself affirms my sacral response.
Of course, it’s still an ongoing process, this deconditioning.
You may have heard about fractals. Many people bring it up to illustrate why some people have more impact than others. According to Rave Cosmology, at the beginning there was a great shattering of the two prime Crystals. The trillions of zillion pieces (let’s say countless) seeded the universe and we each have two such pieces.
If we freeze that moment after the shattering, we can see the fractal lines, how the crystals split and the centre piece. Mind you, the centre isn’t the middle; it’s that piece that retains the characteristics, the same potential of the whole crystal before the shattering. It is the microcosm and from here, we have the fractal lines and the flow direction of information. From the centre down different fractal lines.
Fractal lines & Impact
It may feel like we can be impacted by just anyone. To be truly impacted, however, the person contains a crystal from the same fractal line as you. The closer, the deeper that impact, whether that is to receive from them or to externalize to them.
So Human Design is about aligning us with our fractal line. This is another reason why we don’t rely on the mind to make decisions. The mind cannot see these lines and so does not know how to find these people.
The most important people to me are not the ones closest to the centre. It’s the ones closest to me on my fractal line. You see, there is no hierarchy; a crystal closer to the centre isn’t “better”. It’s only better to the one next to it. Each crystal on a fractal line is important; we all contribute to the evolution of consciousness. We are each a unique filter and we decode the neutrinos and transform consciousness. This means the information travelling along the fractal line changes, which brings me to the next sub-topic.
Fractal Line & Awakening
Human Design reminds us of “no choice.” An easy way to see this is with fractals. As we transform consciousness, awakening moves along the fractal line. Awakening doesn’t come from what we do, what we train our mind to do, or whether we are “old souls”; it’s where we are on the fractal line in relation to the point of awakening. We were all there at the beginning; our crystals anyway. We are all 15 billion years old, give or take a few in that estimate.
When we look outward, and perhaps even in our life while in our Human Design experiment, we may see suffering. We may think, “if only…” and yet, there is no choice. Awakening happens when it happens. Perhaps this understanding can help us all be more compassionate and accepting of where we all are and how well we are just watching the movie of life.
About Ra
If you frequent Facebook groups, for instance, you may have come across the topic of listening and hearing Ra Uru Hu who “brought” Human Design to us. There are passionate people on both sides. Some people struggle with him as he meanders in his lectures or with how he says things, being a Heretic (5/1 with Cross of Clarion – ah that Gate 51 of shock). An often used reason is that a person is or isn’t on his fractal. That may be the case…however, let’s consider another factor – conditioning.
We are all highly conditioned, even those with lots of definition in their design. The world is mostly not-self, still with the 7-centred strategic consciousness. Even if we’ve done a lot of self-work, that mind…that mind is so powerful and it can be sneaky and even manipulative. Our mind is wonderful in its actual role of observing, dreaming, measuring, and as our outer authority. It’s a beautiful thing.
As we are each unique, so too our deconditioning process and our own Human Design experiment. Years of deconditioning isn’t a guarantee that we are not still using our mind to make decisions and that we have completely surrendered to our body consciousness and our vehicle. It really is a continuing process. How we’ve been conditioned can account for so many things, our preferences, our beliefs, our sensitivity, our wounding…
So if we are conditioned (or unaware of it) and if we have been learning our design piecemeal with our mind, there is a danger that our mind is still ruling the roost. It may be telling us that this is not how we receive information or that this person is too gloomy and negative or that this other person is more optimistic, feminine, and spiritual. I’ve seen many people dismiss the mechanics of Human Design because what Ra has said about 2027 doesn’t resonate with them. 2027, let’s remember, is what he’s called the cosmic fairytale. Even he’s said, we will see if the mutation will take. Let’s leave that for another day.
It’s YOUR deconditioning and YOUR Human Design experiment so I’m not here to tell anyone that Ra really doesn’t ruffle your feathers and that it “should be” easy for you to listen, hear, and digest what he’s transmitting. I’m not here to argue his case. I do enjoy listening to him myself and I can understand the frustration that you basically have to listen to a whole swath of his recordings to piece things together. And yes, he did mis-speak and mixed certain terms up from time to time.
What I’m offering, as something I’m experiencing more and more, is that the most important part of our experiment is the experiment itself. It isn’t reading and researching, and that’s HUGE coming from a 1/3! I still read, a lot and I still listen, a lot. I still get readings here and there, as I respond. As I proceed in my own experiment, I’m becoming more and more humble. I’m more and more comfortable with not being certain mentally (hello there, open Ajna) and I’m more and more comfortable with not chasing every freakin’ question (hey you, open Head).
So perhaps a question is where does this frustration come from? Are you looking for certainty? Are you placing knowledge above the actual experiment? These are questions that have come up for myself.
For me, it doesn’t really matter why this or that. The mind will still continue to find reason and rationalization. That’s really its attempt to be safe, and yeah, not be ridiculed by others. My body just leaves the room. I don’t know why. My mind wants to give a reason as not to appear rude, because that’s really frowned upon and we’ve been conditioned to be polite, nice, and good.
That reason and rationalization may be pulling out specific characteristics, whether it’s a gate, our profile, a circuitry, etc.
Yet, is it?
When we are living who we are, we move beyond the characteristics. The costume that is our profile may fit more comfortably and feels easier on us. But it is still only a costume. The thing that really happens is with our frequency. It’s clearer, less distorted and our mind is way more relaxed.
My undefined Solar Plexus has been defined via transits. First with the full 35/36 channel. Then Gate 49 connected my Gate 19 and now Gate 30 connecting my Gate 41.
With my partner having a defined solar plexus I’ve come to understand emotional authority in deeper ways. One thing I know for sure is to take time to experience the entire emotional wave. The high highs and the low lows and share when I’m ready. Prematurely sharing, like when I’m emotionally low, frustrated, sad, etc, thwarts the natural process and rhythm. I’ve learned to trust that when he is ready to share, when he has more clarity, he will. This is how as a 1/3 I’ve broken and re-made our bonds in significant ways. In the past, bonds have been broken but not necessarily remade as I and my romantic partners, friends, business partners, etc did not understand the nature of the 1/3. I was frustrated, saddened, and confused. This is one example of how Human Design has brought clarity, understanding, and acceptance for me.
So when I realized my solar plexus was defined, I observed how I felt and to sit through the emotional wave. I was already triggered by some stuff earlier so it was very challenging. It was uncomfortable, overwhelming. I thought I felt my partner withdraw, emotionally, physically. And when we spoke about it, he said he didn’t and wasn’t.
What I had known and realized but didn’t really realize was that my gates in the solar plexus are themes of how I experience definition here. How the energy flows. I have three moody gates here. The 6 is intimacy or not and what I realized, when I was in the shower (thank god for showers!), is that it was me who was shutting the door on intimacy. I didn’t feel or receive the energy because my own door was closed.
With this clarity, we had another discussion and all this stuff came up. Including how I was judged for being moody, when it was just the energy moving through the gates. Basically he said, no one will judge you for needing to say, “humanity sucks. People suck.” Well I don’t believe that. I did say, some of my ex’s suck. Their behaviour was shitty and I was tired of being the understanding person, understanding the trauma that drove their shitty behaviour. No matter the reason, their behaviour was shitty. It’s okay, my little open heart centre – we don’t need to prove I’m a good person, I don’t need to be “nice” or understanding. They may be wounded and unaware; their behaviour is still shitty.
I’m reading my 127-page Vedic Astrology report I got circa 2007. I unearthed it going through my storage. I’m on page 17. By the way 17 in Jin Shin Jyutsu is the number for Aquarius (my Personality Sun Sign), helps calm the nervous system, and brings emotional-mental clarity. 17 is located on the outside of the wrist, on the little finger side. I like to wrap my hand, with it sitting nicely on the palm of the other hand, thumb on the mound below the thumb – try it!
1 + 7 = 8, magic. Did I discover some Magic here? I believe so.
What I found absolutely fascinating how so much of it jives with my Design. The section I’m at is “What Your Soul Truly Desires.”
My Line 1
You’ll be hard to get to know. You are often seen withdrawn. This being so, it is common for people to see your focus turn inside of yourself.
My Line 3 – Freedom & Adventure
Freedom, as this Vedic Astrologer advices, is about living a fuller life, a richer life, rather than breaking standards of living or being excessively unconventional. For me, breaking standards is inevitable though I have observed my younger self pushing people’s buttons, just because. I see that in others, in my clients, those who have been unseen, unheard, unloved. Some behave radically to get attention they desire. Some do it to prove they are beyond the fray and so approval is not required or desired. Human behaviour, for me, so often comes back to a person’s wound.
Freedom is seen to being most essential for your inner happiness. You’ll thus be found loving changes, new experiences, to that of you desiring to meet new people, being involved in adventures and travels.
You will experience many changes and unusual events, but you learn best through your own experiences. Therefore your life will be full and, you will make great strides in personal growth.
Manifesting Generator
Routine can easily become a bore to you, regardless of your work or activities. Yes, you will not be at your best, if you are forced to do work or be forced, to remain in a place which is always the same.
You enjoy being involved in several projects at the same time. You’ll thus, tend to discard boring pastimes, very quickly.
The advice by this Vedic Astrologer is to recognize that I am feeling restless. Rather than releasing that energy by being rash and doing something for the sake of doing something (hello undefined root!), it will be worthwhile to channel it consciously. And to refrain from tearing things down or criticizing others! Transcending this balance, he goes on to say, will allow me to accomplish things. This is interesting, because on the one hand, I’m a 1/3, life is about bumping into things (following my Strategy & Authority) and on the other, there’s a certain trajectory if I’m not led by my undefined root, for example.
Open Heart Centre & Cross of the Sphinx
You are a bit of a heroine and thus, you’ll desire to save the world. This causes you to make promises you often cannot keep. Down deep, you’ll long to please everyone, of which I can assure you is indeed, an impossible goal.
Undefined Solar Plexus – this one I found interesting. I often see this dialogue about people with a defined and undefined solar plexus feel. So perhaps as someone with an undefined solar plexus, I may come across as a bit more “shallow”, less moody, unless I’m amplifying. Well, I do have a number of Gates of Melancholy.
You can be seen, to you being rather emotionally superficial. Yes, you’ll feel love passionately.
Oh, he advises me to wear pastels, pinks, cherry… as I look at my wardrobe of grey!
Melancholy. Seeing this through the Human Design lens is one of the greatest gifts for me. Melancholy, you see, is different from depression. We are so quick to label our blues as depression, and maybe medicating it, when it’s not that at all. Knowing this and seeing how melancholy shows up in my design and in my life is important for my mental and emotional states of being. And maybe this information can help you or someone you know.
What is melancholy?
From the online Merrian-Webster dictionary:
depression of spirits
a pensive mood
suggestive or expressive of sadness or depression of mind or spirit
causing or tending to cause sadness or depression of mind or spirit
I remember dwelling in this deep and beautiful sadness, especially in my teenage years. It comes on, without reason and without rhyme.
Thankfully I grew up with a piano. Playing the minor key pieces helped me both feel intensely and externalize this melancholy that I have yet to understand. Hearing my music weep was strangely cathartic. Because the world is sad, when it is sad, when I am sad. Then there is my journal, where I have penned many musings of pain, confusion, and reflections. And I listened to a lot of Sinead, Sarah McLachlan, Love & Rockets, Yaz… You get the picture. It was me and my melancholy. Sitting alone, fingers on the ivory keys or pen in hand. The melody, the sounds, the vibrations of the piano. Ah, the acoustics.
Without understanding what was going on, I was moving through my melancholy. This beauty, a gentle fragility, a lightness. I was feeling it and even revelling in the intensity, an emotion so heightened I knew I could soon relish in a tremendous release. That’s the thing about melancholy – you don’t know when it’ll come on, and what change takes place when it ends. It wasn’t easy, without an awareness of what’s really going on, finding reasons to explain something that is meant to pass through and channelled into mutative creativity.
I did ponder the source of this melancholy, something most teenagers would experience. The brooding moody teenager. People didn’t really understand and I felt judged. What was wrong with me? I was conditioned / programmed to hide these moods and what I thought was depression.
Melancholy is not depression. There is nothing wrong, nothing to fix. Yet how many of us know this? We want to know why we feel sad so we can fix it, so we can fix it in other people.
And so when I discovered what melancholy really is, I was relieved.
In Human Design, melancholy is the result of the chemistry that comes with Individual Circuitry. With Individual gates and channels dominating the BodyGraph, there is no greater potential in humanity than to experience personal transformation, as well as deep depression from the states of sadness that are experienced regularly.
There are always two sides of melancholy: the not-self melancholy and the melancholy of what it is to be awake. That is nothing more than a muse calling. It is a creative environment. It’s the warmest thing that you’re ever going to feel.
Ra Uru Hu
Melancholy is chemistry. Richard Beaumont sees melancholy as “an invitation to yourself to be alone” and “aloneness as a medium of creativity.” To be alone to release what is inside. Melancholy is our muse, to leave the collective and the tribe, for that creative spark. This is the role of the individual.
Individuals do not have to share what they know. But they do have to get it out somehow. And if they don’t, that same energy that is incredibly creative, and mystical and full of the very edges of the universe turns agustin them and becomes self-destructive. And those with individuality know that they are self-destructive sometimes, well, more than sometimes. Because it is quite scary to bring out something new.
Richard Beaumont
Now I understand that melancholy comes along with the creative impulse and part of individual circuitry. The Individual is here to be mutative, to bring change to the collective. With 22 Gates of Melancholy in the body graph, even if someone does not have Individual circuits or channels, most of us experience melancholy at some point. And many people get stuck in this frequency, which can move into depression.
The Individual Circuitry
For it [individualistic design], things have to come out of nowhere; ideas or ways how things get done, a poem, or a piece of music. And they usually come of of deep melancholy. The melancholy is a result of waiting, because one is not in control when mutation happens. Melancholy is a very important thing for them.
Steve Rhodes, Bhan Tugh
The 22 Gates of Melancholy
Gate
Energy Centre
Description
57
Intuitive Insight
Spleen
Melancholy through hearing
34
Power
Sacral
Frustration, not able to use one’s power in the now
10
Behaviour of the Self
G
Melancholy that no one else knows how to behave
20
The Now
Throat
Discomfort with how the world is now
51
Shock
Ego
Melancholy about lack of excitement
25
Spirit of the Self
G
Melancholy about being insignificant
38
The Fighter
Root
Not knowing what to fight for
28
The Gameplayer
Spleen
Life devoid of purpose
39
Provocateur
Root
Not knowing whom to provoke
55
Spirit
Solar Plexus
Emptiness potentially leading to eating disorders
22
Openness
Solar Plexus
Melancholy that nothing is worth listening to
12
Caution
G
Melancholy that no one is worth telling to
61
Mystery
Head
Melancholy from lack of inspiration
24
Rationalization
Anja
Melancholy over no resolution and so no inner silence
43
Insight
Anja
Melancholy over inefficiency
23
Assimilation
Throat
Frustration because cannot explain self clearly
60
Acceptance
Root
Melancholy about having nowhere to go
3
Ordering
Sacral
Melancholy about nothing is lasting
14
Power Skills
Sacral
Melancholy about having to work, or not
2
Higher Knowing
G
Melancholy because things are not moving fast enough
1
Self-Expression
G
Melancholy over not being seen as different
8
Contribution
Throat
Melancholy over not having the attention
I have nine Gates of Melancholy lit up. Out of 22 Gates, it’s not that many. However, that’s 9 out of my 20 activated Gates, which is nearly half. I also have all 6 Integration Channels, which is deeply inward-looking, as well as the Channel of Inspiration (8-1). That’s 7 out of 15 of the Individual Channels and 7 out of my 9 total channels. Ra Uru Hu has to this to say about the 8-1 Channel : “The 8-1 is rooted in the most creative, the only hexagram called creative, in that sense, which is the first hexagram.“
After I counted my Gates, I shared with my partner and he said, “that’s a lot!” Eek. He has four Gates of Melancholy himself, with one in his Design Sun, in an open Centre. I have one in my Design Sun and another in my Design Earth, both in a defined centre. Perhaps this makes a difference, that mine are in a defined centre.
For me, I channel my melancholy into writing and other creative activities. This is something my partner witnesses and he feels the different frequency when I’m in my head, “minding it out” or in my body writing, etc. He’s been deconditioning for more than seven years and he is much more attuned to the frequencies like the difference between a busy Head Centre, being pulled in many directions and a quiet one because my energy is singularly focused on creation.
My partner is also very creative. He plays the guitar and ukulele and has a beautiful voice. Being acoustic, his voice is deeply impactful and so very moving. He channels his energy into his music, drawing, and surfing. So with the fires on the West Coast and nursing an injury, not getting in the water as much has been deeply frustrating. This whole lockdown and the official global status of pandemic has been especially challenging. Not travelling, not feeling I can be who I am as freely as I thought I could before. Yes, I know, go back to my Authority. Listen to my sacral.
By no means am I purely individualistic as I do have tribal gates and collective gates and channels. However, it is also not surprising that I get melancholic. Plus that Gate 46 with a shadow frequency of seriousness. We both have this Gate activated. In Pluto, so that’s where transformation takes place and where the truth is.
I’ve been listening to Ra’s Gates of Melancholy recording, which has been very helpful. He goes over each Gate on its own, some of the channels, and how certain Gates are impacted by specific connections, such as the 10-34. For someone who has the entire Integration Circuitry activated, the focus is always looking inward and without awareness of these mechanics and of the Not-Self, melancholy can become depression. That’s also a nugget. It’s something for me to watch.
Knowing my melancholy has everything to do with my design, with my individual circuitry and the mutative process, and no other reason is pivotal. And if you feeling melancholy, I invite you to look at your body graph to see if you have any of the 22 Gates of Melancholy activated.
Contemplate on the source of this melancholy, as expressed by the Gate. Release the pressure and the conditioned need to find a reason for feeling the way you do. Some Gates, especially when not connected through a channel, such as Gate 20, can be deeply depressive. If this is true for you, look for an outlet. Put on music and move the energy through. Doodle, journal, write spiffy notes to yourself, pick up the guitar or tinker around with something. Get some alone time, to feel this without being conditioned by other energies or people’s judgment of how you are feeling and how you should be feeling. Melancholy is part of the mutative process and at some point, it culminates in a release of something that is moving through you inside, this budding and blooming of something new, for the collective.
I’m re-reading The Prophecy of Ra Uru Hu by Steve Rhodes, and specifically the chapter called The 16 Faces. This totally went over my head the first time, and even now, I had to flip back further to The Beginning Before the Start. This cosmology is fascinating and I am being mindful for it not to become more food for my open mind. Like Ra said in the free intro to the Godheads audio, awareness of the programming by the Personality Bundles and Godheads points us back to the vehicle and the form.
The Mind, though, is open to so much programming, to the Not-Self through the open centres, and the conflicting narratives of all the Gods and Goddesses. The Personality Bundles surround the planet and neutrinos are filtered through them all, “competing” for our attention. Talk about confusion and drama. And when humans identify with one Godhead as the only truth, feeling the need to defend and perpetuate the One God, it can get dicey. And it does make me wonder about all the people channelling. It’s the Godheads!
So I want to understand how the Godheads program myself and others, to further decondition and deepen acceptance. I’ve always had issue with using morality to control us, and I’m seeing this even more now with all the virtue signalling. “I do [this] because I care about you.”
Every god and goddess that humanity has ever had can be found in one of the 16 Faces. The 16 Faces of God, the gods.
Steven Rhodes, The Prophecy of Ra Uru Hu
Christ Consciousness, Buddha Consciousness, all these familiar concepts – these are mechanics. They are the programming by one of 16 Personality Bundles. Yes, more programming and conditioning. And more mechanics.
I’m exploring this as part of deconditioning, to see the mechanics and maybe see with more awareness of what isn’t who I am, what is attractive because it’s not who I am. I think we are vulnerable to that because we have not yet recognized how amazing we all are, and somehow still believe we are missing something. We need someone or something, external to us. To energize us, to spark something within us. This is also where I delve into Gene Keys, with the three frequency bands, and remember within each of us are unique gifts. I remember I am complete within myself.
What is My GodHead, according to Human Design?
The Rave Mandala is divided into four quarters – Initiation, Civilization, Duality, and Mutation. Each quarter consists of four faces of Godheads.
Look at the Mandala below, find the quarter your Personality Sun is in. In the drop-down lists below the Mandala, look for your Personality Sun Gate under your quarter to find your Godhead.
My Personality Sun is 13 and so I am part of the Quarter of Initiation or the Quarter of the Mind. Gate 13 is the beginning of Kali, the Destroyer of False Devotion. When you look at the hexagrams, you can see a relationship between 13 and 30 and 13, 37, 25, and 42. They complement each other, and express what Ra Uru Hu calls Gate and Genetic Continuity. All of them relate to the mind, to how we think. The hexagrams are made up of three couplets – the bottom one is the Quarter couplet and the middle one, the Godface couplet – they are the same for the same Quarters and the same Godface. The top couplet is what differentiates the Hexagrams. Just another dimension of Human Design and understanding the Hexagrams and I-Ching.
If you are Navajo, the place to perform initiation is inside a restricted cave somewhere on the vertical wall of Tse B’tai in New Mexico. The candidate takes a narcotic or a poison and for three nights their soul leaves the body to wander into the Otherworld. They return to the body fully cognizant of what they learned and encountered during this induced near-death experience. Members of such mysteries schools described those who’d never experienced this out-the-body journey as “the dead” or unenlightened, while the initiated were declared “risen from the dead”. The point of the ritual – which was also performed inside stone boxes, underground chambers and specific pyramids – was to improve oneself in daily life by applying the information gleaned from the experience. ” – Freddy Silva [source]
Kali is Face 5 of 16 and according to Jovian Archive, “Kali is one of two divinities associated with the Solar Plexus – potential Needs, Passions, and Desires are her domain. Her gates speak to how Mind uses past feelings to justify your present, and how emotions overpowering rational thought can distort your perceptions.”
Three of the four gates of Kali are in the solar plexus centre – 30, 49, and 55. Gate 13 is in the G-Centre. All four – 13, 49, 30, 55 – are yang-yang – deep mutation. (Look at the middle couplet). With these four gates, we have four themes.
The top couplet shows their differentiation – yang-yang, yang-yin, yin-yang, and yin-yin, respectively. Gate 55 carries the pure yin of Kali. And by 2027, the channel 19-49 will no longer exist. It’s been breaking for a long time. That’s because both gates 49 and 55 are under mutation. (Both are histidine by the way). There is so much connected to 19-49 it will be something to witness.
This graphic shows the Quarter of Initiation. Note that the bottom couplet is the same for all the Hexagrams in this Quarter. So all 16 Hexagrams have the same bottom couplet which is yang-ying (read from the bottom up). For Kali, which is Hexagrams/Gates 13, 49, 30, and 55, the middle couplet is yang-yang.
(yin is two broken lines; yang is one solid line)
I have an undefined Solar Plexus, with three hanging gates. I am surrounded by people with a defined Solar Plexus, including my partner who also belongs to the Quarter of Initiation and with Gate continuity with my own (13 The Listener and 42 Growth, due to their Gate Binary of Yang-Yang).
People with a defined Solar Plexus is emotionally defined. (The Solar Plexus is the triangle on the right side of the Bodygraph) Riding and understanding their emotional waves are the crust of their decision-making process. It can get intense for both the emotionally defined and those around them who are undefined. An undefined centre amplifies these emotions. If you are interested in reading more about the defined and undefined Solar Plexus centre, check out this article.
(This is what happens – our openness attracts definition – we are here to learn about our openness and it’s through conditioning, and deconditioning. So
The voltage of emotions was always too much for me. My own emotions and also other people’s. And my melancholy. With Human Design, I now understand the mechanics of defined and undefined centres in aura, including how with my undefined Solar Plexus centre, I amplify emotional energies and basically have devised protective and defensive strategies to avoid them, to avoid doing things to “cause” them to spike/lash out, etc. This is the not self theme of the undefined Solar Plexus. Because the emotional field can be so overwhelming and toxic, especially given the lack of understanding of emotional waves.
So this little tidbit about Kali being associated with the Solar Plexus is interesting and something to contemplate and witness. How do my feelings from the past keep me hostage to beliefs and programmings that no longer work for me or weren’t mine to begin with? How have I created this belief or thought pattern that this is fate (dormant 41 pointing to that 30, Gate of Fates and more about 30 below)? How do I renew myself and become more and more me? How am I amplifying these energies from other people or taking these emotions as my own? What wounds am I still holding on and what am I identifying that keep these patterns in place?
And here’s where Kali comes in – she’s here to obliterate the ego where it keeps us locked in the past, unable to move forward. She’s death and rebirth. Transformation.
Kali, Fierce & Compassionate
In Hinduism, Kali is a ferocious and fearsome-looking Goddess. An emotional force! With her four arms, she holds a sword and the head of a demon and she wears the regalia of human skulls (which represent the ego). She’s a fierce energy. Kali is also known as compassionate and protective, somewhat like the stern teacher that Saturn is. Tough love. Interesting that Gate 13 is Aquarius, co-ruled by Saturn and Uranus. Like lightning and sudden strikes of Uranus, Kali’s force helps us to quickly move along on our spiritual path.
It’s believed that Kali emerged from Durga to destroy demons. Demons, our shadows, our fears. And Durga is already pretty awesome and beloved. Kali is wild. It’s told that she became bloodlust obliterating the demons that she got lost in it. Shiva had to help her realize what she was doing. So her powers need practice to wield or they can consume us. It’s wisdom to know what to destroy and awareness to know when to stop. With Neptune in 34, this is also something for me.
From Stuart Rice’s The Bhakti User’s Manual: Volume 1 Kali,
“On looks alone, Kali is not a goddess with which to mess around. Usually represented with four or ten arms, she carries several formidable weapons, and one hand holds a bleeding severed head. She has a garland of heads or skulls, either 51 of them or 108 of them. She wears a skirt of human arms, and she’s crushing some poor guy under her foot.
In the vernacular, we could say that Kali looks like one bad-ass bitch. But she’s really not that bad—she’s just drawn that way.”
Kali is so called because She devours Kala (Time) and then resumes Her own dark formlessness.
John Woodroffe, Garland of Letters
Ra Uru Hu pointed out that Kali is the Yin GodHead of Transformation, “enormous transformation. That is transformation and change that requires death and resurrection.”
He sees Kali represented in many cultures as a male force; yet for him, she’s merely in yang clothing. On the outside, she’s burning away the dross, the falsity of devotion. To an external authority. And we are here to surrender to the spirit of Life. We start this 5th Face with Yang (13’s top couplet) and end with Yin (55’s top couplet). We start this Quarter with Yang (Kali) and end with Yin (Janus). To die and reborn, with the vehicle to house an unblemished, untarnished, unburdened spirit.
Working with Kali – Mantras
In Stuart Rice’s manual, he shares his own experiences working with Kali, specifically about using mantras. As Kali is about cutting to the chase and destroying all falsity, the experience can be harsh, exacting, and quick. He says it takes thick skin to work with Kali. I agree, and an abundance of unwavering courage.
The two mantras he suggests to start with are the seed sound (bija) mantra or Krim and the one that calls her by name. Om Shri Kalikayai Namah.
The seed mantra is “like a broom for negative ego – it just starts sweeping it away.” The illusions will start to dissolve as how we are our own prisoners will be right in your face.
If you have already worked with Kali for a while or ready to zip through, he suggests the following mantras to call the cosmic forms of Kali:
In addition to the seed mantra Krim, we have two other seed sound mantras – Hrim, Shrim, and Hum. The Hrim mantra is to destroy the veil of illusion while the Hum mantra is to dissolve the illusion of the universe. Shrim is the mantra for abundance.
If you are new to mantras, perhaps the most important thing to remember is focus. First focus on the intention for the mantra and when chanting, focus on the mantra itself. You can start with 18 repetitions each morning or at the sattvic times of the day – dawn and dusk. You can also do 108 repetitions. I use mala beads to keep count. Also remember that the outcome is not for the ego. Breathe. Trust life.
Each Godhead has four Gates, and so four aspects, themes or nuances. For Kali, these are Gates 13, 49, 30, and 55. The values of life are in Gate 13, which comes into union with Gate 30, the fates that lead us to different human experiences. Both 13 and 30 are the amino acid Glutamine. “Through right action, we are able to find the high principles of life.” (Ra Uru Hu)
Delving into the codons is another exploration yet!
With my Personality Sun in Gate 13, I’ve been imprinted by this energy. Gate 13 is the beginning of the beginning of the four Quarters. With 13.1, I’m connected to this quarter even more so. That’s because Line 1 is the first line, the foundation. The first line of the first Gate of the Quarter of Initiation. As 1/3, trial and error, death and rebirth, exploration and experimentation are major themes.
It’s a spiritual and mystical death. Death of the ego. To emerge into the world of the mind and become the unique energy we are.
13 is one of the main identities and the beginning of identity for humanity, the beginning of the beginning of the initiating quarter. (Ra Uru Hu) 13 is a memory Gate, a collector of experiences and of all the gates of the quarter, building the foundation of the mind. “Every single gate [of this quarter] is a portal to the mental system.” (Ra Uru Hu, Quarter of Initiation lecture) They are “receptors and translators of the mind.”
13 is the Listener, and carries secrets and stories, what Ra calls their “deepest power” in his Quarter of Initiation lecture. What we do is synthesize our experiences so that we may share them, as part of the Channel of the Prodigal. The path of the Fellowship of Man.
But I’m not here to express the uniqueness of the 13, of Kali. That’s the role of the 5th Line folks. I’m the beginning, the foundation. Line 5s project the essence of a Gate and they are here to universalize it.
Back to the hexagrams for a minute. Take a look at Gate 49 (as well as Gates 63, 17, and 3) – their top couplet is the same as the quarter couplet (the bottom/foundation couplet). These Gates personify the Quarter of Initiation.
As a 1/3, I bump into ideas, experiences, people… And when I bumped into this concept of the 16 Godheads, I was intrigued. At that time, I had no idea my Godhead is Kali, though she was not unfamiliar to me. I can’t find the blog now; literally the first one I read about Godheads and Human Design was an personal experiential account and the writer’s Godhead was Kali. I wish I can find it again to re-read it, to better understand having Kali as a Godhead.
Now, it’s time for this information to sink more deeply into my being and flower. For now, I will hold gently the question of false devotion and see how that shows up in life (trust life!) and what the universe wants to show me. Our Godhead is our programming, our conditioning – so another question is where have I been blinded to think this is the only way to see the world. Where do I insist this is the way to go? I will also continue my conversations with my partner about the Quarter of Initiation and how the Godheads Kali and Janus have programmed our Mind.
As Ra said in his Quarter of Initiation lecture, this is only one quarter of the ocean of conditioning. This Godhead is 1/16 of it. Mind-blowing, the density of the programming. Here’s to “breaking that covenant” that Ra speaks of. Respect the work of the Gods but not be slaves to them. “I will listen to the Gods but I will not obey them. I watch my mind. I do not obey it.”
I am a 1/3 Manifesting Generator. This means I have Line 1 for my Personality Sun and Earth Gates and Line 3 for my Design Sun and Earth Gates. Personality is the Mind, the Conscious. Design is the Body, the Not Conscious. In other words, these lines make up my Profile, sort of a costume I wear to play my role in this incarnation.
These are perhaps the most important lines in my design since the Sun emits about 70% of the neutrinos in our part of the universe. Neutrinos, now verified by science, are part of what we know as dark matter. Their infinitesimal mass carries and leaves info as they pass through absolutely everything and everyone. We are imprinted with this information and we also filter them as they pass through us. That’s evolution. That is how everyone participates in the evolution of consciousness. So yes, everyone, with their own uniqueness, is important.
The Lines in Human Design give us important information. They add another layer to each of the 64 Hexagrams that describe aspects of our energy and beingness. We can look at these six lines as parts of a house, with Line 1 being the foundation and Line 6, the roof.
Line 1
The Investigator. The Line 1 is here for the foundation. They look for and absorb information, which makes them feel secure because the foundation is strong. They like to figure things out on their own and many become masters because they really dig deep and come to understand a process.
Line 2
The Natural does their thing and people look in and see this or that. People see Line 2s as naturals, talented; a projection since they may not be a genius. The thing is they are a hermit and need alone time and space and must be called out. They are selective, though.
Line 3
The Discoverer is the role of trial & error, bumping into experiences and seeing what works and what does not. When they quit something, it’s not because they are quitters. It’s just not working, though they can stick with something for a long time. And they are not making mistakes. That’s just how they discover, for themselves and for the collective.
Line 4
The Opportunist has a lot of influence; however, it is on people they already know. Community, friendships, and relationships are thus important for them. Of course, it’s got to be the right people. And they invest in people with their support and friendship.
Line 5
The Saviour. Ah the projection field. People with a Line 5 Profile are seen as the Saviour, the one who has the answers. They may. And again, they may not. So people can get upset if reality does not measure up to their own projections. Their role is universalization, which means distributing and making accessible to the masses.
Line 6
The Perfectionist. These people are perfecting what has been done and the 6/3 will look for the next thing. Their lives are divided into three phases; the first one is akin to that of Line 3, trial and error. Age 30 to 50 is the roof, being an observer and becoming objective again, which draws people to them for advice. When they come off the roof, it’s time for them to be the living example of what does work.
1/3 Profile
As a 1/3 I investigate, gather information, and then experiment. I test the soundness of what I have learned, of the foundation. I enjoy deconstructing and discussing. With an open Head Centre, I am open to many ideas so there is a lot I explore.
I bump into people, things, and encounters – that is the pattern of life for me. Accidental, and not really an accident. It is correct for me and I’ve got resilience for this. Sometimes this is walking into table corners.
I can see my 1/3 at work when I think about how I am approaching Human Design, Gene Keys, Jin Shin Jyutsu, and everything else. I love doing it my own way, reading this or that, observing if it shows up (or not) in my life, and debriefing with my partner who is a Human Design Guide.
I see teachers as a source of many aspects to explore, rather than a well of all-consuming knowledge. I take their word for their own experiences; though, I do question if it’s applicable to others, especially myself.
As I bump into different topics, I will dive into whatever books that I feel drawn to or come into my view. Or I may purchase this or that course to listen to other people discuss about it. If it’s conceptual, I like to break it down. I love reading real-life stories. Hence, I have a vast library of a divergent topics.
So I started this website to share my lab notes and log my experiment and journey. Because of my 1, what I learn is part of the foundation. It’s what others work with. We build a strong structure with a sturdy and true foundation of integrity.
Maybe it’s the 33-13, the Channel of the Prodigal. This channel connects my G Centre (identity, direction, love) to my Throat Centre (sharing, manifesting). I’m pretty sure I’ve lived many times as a Bard before, travelling the realms and then returning with stories and information and keeping the memories alive. It’s also got that “been there, done that, let me tell you about it” energy. So for me, at the end of experiences, especially relationships, I ponder what the lessons are. Sometimes, when I was younger especially, it can take a few go’s until I get it.
Let’s Look at the 2/4
My partner is a 2/4 (Natural/Opportunist). Yes he does also google when he needs to fix stuff, like his truck. I definitely google, read (pretty much) every review, talk to friends, etc to gather information way more than him, who is a natural. I love figuring how something works; him, not so much.
Here’s an example – cooking. Perhaps it’s raising a child as a co-parent and having to put together meals all the time. Anyway, he can definitely throw together breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks very very quickly. I like to google recipes and get the ingredients. Mind you, I’m not always great at following recipes. I may the first time and even then, measuring is sooo restrictive.
He just lets me 1/3 it, with no judgment. Sometimes he still tenses when I approach him, as I have hit him with my elbow or knee. Time to tap into my Gate 22, the Gate of Openness. Grace.
Counting the Lines
I wanted to see what lines are dominant in my design, just out of curiosity. I think this seed was planted from one of Ra’s lectures or quotes. I can’t remember now.
Personality Side
Line
Line Count
1
2
2
2
3
0
4
5
5
2
6
2
Design Side
Line
Line Count
1
2
2
2
3
3
4
3
5
3
6
0
So on the Personality/Mind/Conscious side of my design, I have no Line 3s and a predominance of Line 4. Line 3 is “making and breaking bonds” and with zero Line 3s on my Mind side, perhaps this is why my mind hangs on longer than my Body. Hmmm. For me, though, transparency and honest conversation is important. This is how we can re-make or make a new bond that a new level of our relationship can shift to. Perhaps I do this more from a subconscious level. Probably.
I have 5 Line 4s here. Line 4 is about my network, my friendships, and who I know so does this also make it harder to break away? Because on some conscious level, I know my influence is the greatest on those within my community and community building is what I do. This bridge. I also enjoy writing about people I know, as a way to share their gifts and celebrate who they are.
It’s all food for thought. For contemplation. Lightly turning it over in my mind, rather than making it a thing, more stories, more “stuff” for the Mind to hang on to.
The lesson here, or the reminder, with a preponderance of Line 4s is to befriend people correct for me. This means going back to my sacral response. True for everyone, trusting their Authority, only more so with people with lots of Line 4s.
Counting the lines in my Human Design body graph gives a general idea of the energies at work, beyond my Profile. It will be interesting and fun to investigate (here’s that 1/3!) the Gates and Planets along with the lines. At this time, I’m looking at the elements separately, moving to a more holistic understanding of my design. Piece by piece. 1/3 has the patience to do this over time!
I was reading about the 6th Gene Key and realized that my partner and I were experiencing this energy in our conversation. I have this Gene Key/Gate activated and he has its programming partner, the 36th Gene Key. These are Gates in our Human Design Bodygraph, though not part of our Golden Path.
What hit home was this statement –
The biofeedback loop between these two shadows is rooted in nervousness and defensiveness. The 36th Shadow makes you nervous, feeding the 6th Shadow, which responds through making you behave defensively. Likewise, your own defensiveness makes other people behave in a nervous manner around you.
Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys
My Human Design and Gene Keys Experiment is an ongoing unfolding, a wonderful fun project (that is me) for a 1/3 Profile. So when I was reading about 6th Gene Key, the current world theme that was just beginning, it dawned on me how we role-played and experienced it within our conversation that morning..
We have some very intense conversations. Intense because we are holding space for each other, to be what may be called “radically honest.” It’s big work, opening up to a level of intimacy that at once calls up old wounds, personal, tribal, and collective and dissolves them.
I don’t remember now what we were talking about. He was nervous about hurting my feelings or triggering a past relationship pattern. I so appreciate his awareness, care, and love for me. And he’s shared that talking with me helps him process. He’s emotionally defined and it can take time.
This background frequency of nervousness or turbulence then reinforced my defensiveness, which I am not always aware of. This energy can be so subtle, and even “sneaky.” In those moments, I can come across “sharp” I’ve been told. It is distorted because of some underlying wound. Perhaps a past pattern is re-energized or brought to the surface. Residual I suppose from the work I have already done releasing the past – the betrayals and other events, woundings, and traumas. Ah, the silver lining and the gift of a difficult separation and divorce. A lot of growing up, growing awareness, and “adulting.” Alas, I digress…
And my defensiveness feeds feeds his nervousness. That’s how programming partners work. On the Shadow, Gift, and Siddhi levels.
The 6th Gene Key
The 6th Gene Key was the world theme from September 15 to 20, 2020. This is the path of peace, from the shadow of conflict through the gift of diplomacy.
I have this gate in my bodygraph; however, since my Solar Plexus is undefined, it is not an activated gate. The 6th and the 59th Gates create the Channel of Mating, which interestingly enough, was a connection I had with my ex-husband. And no, we didn’t have any kids. We did build up the resources to support a family, and definitely our family of four with our two adopted dogs.
The 6th Shadow of Conflict is the single most influential Gene Key in regard to the issue of human communication. At its highest potential, the 6th Gene Key is the archetype of peace of earth, whilst at its lowest potential it is the root cause of all human conflict. This conflict stems from the human emotional system and our inability to handle the voltage of extreme emotional states. Conflict breaks out whenever two or more people agree to identify with their emotional state. As long as you surrender your will to the emotional system, then you will be trapped by its volatile nature.
Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys
I often find myself spontaneously bursting into tears when I read about my activated Gene Keys. Oh, Richard, what is this “sorcery” that touches me so deeply. I think it is the spellbinding power of truth.
Shadow Consciousness – Conflict
It is easy to see how this shadow consciousness of Conflict is part of the collective energy at this point. We can see it within ourselves, how we repress emotions, showing up as inconsistencies. We can see it all over social media, even without the trolls, and between friends over politics, and of course now the virus.
And in the world today, especially with the sweeping changes of the pandemic status, we see tremendous conflict around how we see the best way of moving forward, how to live now, between feeling safe and free, what is real and not…
As we accelerate the dismantling of all things secret and veiled, I can see how Conflict may be intensified. Those with vested interests and secrets want them protected. This “fight” we can see as different truths and half-truths circulate, comes back to our personal conflicts.
We are coming together, approaching 2027, when our current age ends. This is the time, these few years, to really unlock all that is esoteric and hidden. Good and bad. According Human Design cosmology, 2027 is a nexus point, when the current global incarnation cross, Cross of Planning, will come to an end. All that was created from that energy – infrastructure, institutions, commercial farming, community projects, etc – will begin to unravel.
What will the world be like without all things “normal” and familiar? I believe we are getting a sampling of that now in 2020.
Emotional Defence Strategies, Anyone?
On writing about the 6th Shadow, Richard Rudd states that our emotional defence strategies are really formulated in our second 7-year cycle, when we are 7 to 14. Remember how outrageously emotional the adults in your life were when we were that age? I do. As kids, we really had very little control of what happened. And so these ways to protect ourselves and our feelings.
One major emotional defence strategy I came up with as a teenager was never to be angry. Because as a child, it was somehow always my fault and I always had to apologize, which I felt was grossly unfair. So the pendulum swung the other way. From keenly feeling my emotions, my gut responses, and my truth to not letting anyone in, not showing how vulnerable, sensitive, and hurt I was.
Side note: not feeling my gut and not uttering my sounds as a child is shutting down my authority as a Manifesting Generator. As you may know, we have our unique way of knowing the truth.
That 6th Gene Key/Gate, which is about opening or not to intimacy, was very discerning and very few, mostly animals, got through. While I poured my wounded heart onto the pages of a journal that never saw the day. And without understanding the defined/undefined Solar Plexus relationship, I felt victimized and never learned to be with my emotions. How not to identify with them, especially when they weren’t even mine. My take is that this is part of my work in this life, being surrounded by emotionally defined people. Oh, and learning to see the Not-Self who desires to connect three Solar Plexus gates and feeling fulfilled when someone does. We are all perfect and unique!
Of course the ego has to die, that tremendous humbling that takes you to your knees, so you can look up at the sky and see the world is so much bigger than who we thought we were. And that we are so much bigger than who we thought we were.
Touching the Gift of Diplomacy
The Gift of the 6th GK is Diplomacy. Meeting people halfway. Taking down our barriers so we can step away from preconceived ideas and assumptions. And opening our hearts. This means taking an honest look at where we are not meeting ourselves, of where we have internal conflicts and bravely go beyond them.
Every human being is emotionally vulnerable until we drop our protective defences. The defences form around our heart, and as long as our hearts remain defended and closed, they can’t heal.
Richard Rudd, 64 Ways
The Gift of the 36th GK is Humanity. Just as the Shadow states of programming partners feed into each other, so too do the Gift and Siddhi frequencies. It’s all holographic and related and when we shift one, we uplift all.
With your heart open, it is not possible to be overwhelmed. The heart can open infinitely to accommodate anything and everything. Only the mind can be overwhelmed. Only the emotions can be overwhelmed. But your soul, your whole being at a higher frequency cannot be overwhelmed by life.
Richard Rudd on the 36th Gene Key
Our humanity… We say “we are only human” as if it’s a bad thing, a lesser quality and yet, there is great strength in our humanity, in our humanness. It’s spirit living within. Rather than leaving the human body behind, I believe we are here as vehicles for Heaven and Earth. How? Well, the highest potential of these two Gene Keys is the Siddhi states of Peace and Compassion. How beautiful.
On a collective level, the 6th Siddhi will be the very last Siddhi to fully mutate in the coming shift in global consciousness. Only when peace is recognized on earth as the natural state of our collective consciousness can the future vehicle of humanity be built. In other words, the myth of world peace is the pretext for building the future body that will take us beyond form itself.
Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys
The ultimate peace comes when all boundaries within and interfacing the “external” are dissolved. The body is the Garden of Eden. It is a state of truth.
It’s been years since I stumbled onto Human Design and the Gene Keys. I am grateful for this information, especially now as we are moving into the last 7-year cycle before 2027. Will it play out according to the Human Design Cosmology? Well, I guess we will see rather soonish, or at least aspects of the “fairytale”. 2020 – the year of why not?! And here we are, writing and sharing my own Human Design/Gene Keys Experiment. This is not the end all philosophy, and certainly not more fodder for the Mind. If you are new to Human Design or the Gene Keys, I encourage to take a look and explore it through your own self. We are our own Authority.
Or as Jin Shin Jyutsu Master Teacher Mary Burmeister reminded us – We are our own Testimony. And speaking of JSJ, the Keynotes for Safety Energy Lock 6 are Balance and Discrimination. We can simply hold this energy sphere, which is located on the arch of our feet. Think about how our feet is so important in standing upright. It so beautiful ties into the Gene Keys.
While we may march for peace, we will not achieve it when we are in conflict. When we are protesting against something, when we are not at peace with ourselves, when we cannot be with all the voltages and frequencies of our emotionality, when we see “other”, Peace is only a concept and a fleeting glimpse, if even.
