The problem isn’t that we don’t know this. We know we are here to live our own lives, on our own terms. We are not here to be led by the nose. Nor are we here to live out our parents’ dreams or be the dream for our spouse.
We do know we are not here to be told what to do.
But we get scared and we want to be told. Because we think, this is how we can avoid pain, loss, and suffering.
Or we’ve been punished for doing it our way.
Or we don’t want to deal with the consequences of being different, not meeting someone’s expectations.
So many of us are simply explaining (which morphs into more defending) something that we understand from our inner core. And not by any stretch of logic. We know, we just can’t explain it.
We also live in a society that measures and rewards success in specific ways. Groomed to fear the loss of support, etc. It makes sense since we’re living in a very materialistic and tribal age, this Cross of Planning global cycle.
How many times have kids been told what to study, what they cannot be, or “that’s not what good people do”, etc?
Some of our fear is biological. We are vulnerable as mortal beings, so far removed from our instincts. I mean, maybe in times of crisis and emergency, some of that are put to the test and we learn yes, hey, we can take care of ourselves. We do know which way to run, or head to. Just like the elephants. Mostly, we don’t know and we get hurt easily. We can feel pain intensely.
One of the worst conditioning is the belief that we have to figure it out by a certain age.
It – what work to do, who we are, what kind of person we are, our mission this life, our purpose, life itself. Why are we here?
Wow, what a burden to place on kids. And ourselves. To have it figured out, enough to choose a major in college, enough to adult it before their Saturn Return (around 28-30), enough to navigate our Uranus Opposition…
And to figure it out with our mind. Gah!
Our mind is powerful. It’s wonderful. Wondrous. It is rather a miracle.
What it can’t figure out are all these things, which unfold over time as we walk our path.
The mind also cannot see our path.
In Human Design, there are concepts that explain why that is. The mechanics of life.
When at age 30, 40, or even 50, and we haven’t figured it out, we feel like failures, we get labelled as failures. We feel like we’ve let everyone down – ourselves, our spouse (if we have one), our parents, our boss, our kids..our cat.
We know we aren’t here to be told what to do.
And many of us are not even wired to figure it out with our mind. We don’t have a strategic mind and the more we try, the more it hurts and the more frustrated, bitter, angry, and disappointed we feel. It can be a downward spiral and understanding this can be so profound. This is a reason I do love Human Design. It shows how a good portion of the population are different, why we are different, and that the role models we see out in the world just are not for us.
We know we are here to live as who we are.
In a crunch, in a crisis, when you’re so exhausted from living from who you are not, who you think you are/need to be/should be, who you’ve been conditioned to be, the who with all the masks, do you truly believe that? Or do you succumb just a little, to get some of the benefits society provides?
It takes incredible courage and self love to walk our own path. To trust that the path will appear as we walk it. And not to heed others’ dissenting calls, ridicule, and heckling from the back of the room and stay on path.
Motivation in Human Design doesn’t mean what we think it means.
It is not what motivates us or drives us.
It is not how we make decisions.
Projectors & Motivation
The messenger of Human Design spoke about how using Motivation as a signpost is especially important for Projectors.
Why?
Projectors connect with others through invitation.
An invitation is not a willy-nilly off-hand comment. It is as sacred as inviting a vampire into your home.
This means recognizing who this person is and formally and intentionally inviting them into your aura and to guide you. Projectors are here, after all, to guide. (And please don’t mix that up with lead – not the same.)
Some creative people have extended this vampire analogy to say that Projectors are energy vampires. (We all know that a vampire must be invited in to enter your home, yeah?)
It is true that Projectors are not energy beings, like Generators/Manifesting Generators and Manifestors. Projectors are here to be conditioned – conditioned correctly – and that includes receiving energy from the people who are right for them.
Who’s right for them?
People who recognize them as who they are and invite them. And people who then the Projectors, through their own internal radar, decide if they are, at this time, right for them. A Projector may be a pure Individual (only has Individual channels) and someone believes they are here to support them is not recognizing them. Individual are here to empower, which is very different from “support”, the keynote of the Tribal Circuitry. This is a simplistic example, mind you.
Correctness is not a reflection of value or worth. It is not a reflection of how “good”, “bad” or any other descriptions you can give a person. It’s simply alignment, which is the right people, at the right time, in the right place.
So back to why Motivation is an important signpost for Projectors.
Projectors are not here to respond as their way to navigate life. That’s the Generators and Manifesting Generators and they can respond to external stimuli pretty much all the time. Note that this doesn’t mean it’s a yes for them all the time. They too have an internal radar to know if the decision is a yes or a no. Or a “not sure yet”.
And decisions are what take us down our path in life. Decisions can take us off track, decisions can get us back on track.
If you’re living out your Strategy—what you’re getting is this constant affirmation. That’s why I call them signposts. They keep on reminding you that you’re doing a good job.
For non-energy Types, it’s one of the most important things of all. If they don’t have their signposts, they’re desperate. After all, energy Types living out their Strategy moment-by-moment have more opportunities for affirmation than non-energy Types. And you have to see that for the non-energy Type, that when they’re operating correctly, if they’re a Projector it doesn’t mean they’re going to receive an invitation all the time. And yet, if they’re operating correctly and they do go through their process and the invitations come, as each invitation comes there’s this, ―Yeah, it works. That’s what signposts are all about. – Ra Uru Hu
(Not to make it even more complex – decisions we think we are making are actually what’s surfaced from an inner guidance system and this system relies on our frequency being correct – it’s kinda of an egg-or-chicken scenario, except not – an instant and yet moment-by-moment manifestation loop.)
We use signposts to track whether we are on our path or not. Signposts are resistance and the not-self theme and Signature for each of the four Aura Types. Resistance may be posting what the mind thinks it’s a delicious post on social media, only to lose it entirely.
Invitations for Projectors don’t come all the time so they may not get these signposts as readily. That’s why Motivation as a signpost for Projectors is so important.
What is Motivation?
To understand how, let’s find out what Motivation is.
Motivation is what comes out of us, when we share with other people. It is part of our Outer Authority. Our expression.
We can observe if it is in transference or not. Transference indicates a shift of our signature or home frequency. A shift means that how we are taking in information and processing it is off. This affects our decisions, because we are distorted. Note the transference and pause. Pause and don’t jump into a decision.
Important to remember – Motivation will transfer. It’s like seeing the contrast to finetune our understanding of what our Motivation is, to be attuned to our frequency. We become more and more aware of when it is in transference. This awareness is part of the “training” of the mind to see without distortion. For us to sit at the back of our vehicle, and be. See as the Passenger Consciousness.
A huge lesson in my experiment is trust my intuition.
You’ve probably heard this said a whole bunch of times.
The thing is, as you decondition and see your not-self in action, you see these not-self themes in more subtle and pervasive ways. Yes, it can feel overwhelming, like is there no end, and what’s the point.
If you’re feeling this, you’re not alone. Many people come to this place, and not just the one time.
Many people share that a couple of years of being in their Experiment is when it seems to get more challenging. It’s because we are starting to see more, including how we’ve built up our identity and how we’ve contorted ourselves to fit into the world…
This is why nourishing our spirit and truly being anchored in self love are so important as we go deeper into the deconditioning process. And also, having a good sense of humour. I think especially for Line 3s. Because we are going to see more, more of the not-self world and it can be very lonely. There’s no shame in this. Many people don’t like to talk about the shadow work, the challenges of deconditioning…it doesn’t sell well to the mainstream, where Human Design has found a place.
So back to the huge lesson in intuition.
I’m an acoustic being. It’s my individual circuitry, it’s my line 3, it’s a few aspects of my Design.
I’m a 34-20 Sacral Manifesting Generator and I can move really fast. It’s important to check in, after dipping my toe, to see if the response is really there. My Spleen is defined with one Gate, 57, an acoustic Gate. And sometimes I move so fast I don’t take note of the first intuitive hit, so taking a pause is key.
Going too fast, what else?
I think the not-self themes of my open centres are obvious. Not-self themes of undefined centres are one of the first things we learn about. Of course, seeing them in action may take time, and also, quite frankly, honesty.
That open Heart Centre, right?
Mine is completely open and has no Gates pointing to it. So, no pressures on it. It takes specific transits and Ego-defined people to define it so the lessons and its actions are less obvious than say my two undefined centres which have many opportunities to be conditioned. So we can override our intuition because we don’t want to rock the boat, we want to prove we are the right person for the job, we are intelligent and make sense, etc.
What else? What about Line 1? Line 1 is inherently introspective, inward-looking, insular, and always looking for a foundation. And insecure.
It becomes secure by having a solid foundation and it does this through investigating and gathering information. The not-self theme of Line 1 is investigating everything, so it feels secure. It’s investing life force even in what’s not for them. Line 1s can hide behind information and knowledge to feel secure or feel secure because of their collection of intel.
And so, because of the attraction of new information, a Line 1 can get pulled in by people who come across as authorities, experts, and anyone who has leading edge information. Now, these people may have solid info, or they may not. And even if they do, if a person’s personal authority is a no, this person isn’t for them. If you struggle with this, check to see what your mind stories are and review the not-self themes of your aura type and undefined centres as well as bridging gates. What are you trying to get rid of? What is the reward for going ahead with spending money on these people your body’s like no?
This is what I’ve learned. I’ve struggled with certain people. They may be experts, many of them are even better marketers. But my response to them is a no. I’ve investigated it a bit further, and listened to them speak. It’s very clear there’s a lack of acoustic attunement. They sound off to me. Icky. Now, this isn’t about them as people. It’s about me trusting in my process, trusting that the information I require will show up and I don’t need to push against the river, so to speak.
If a person isn’t for me, their Outer Authority isn’t for me and I won’t be able to hear them. I won’t get what is for me.
So, pausing and checking in with myself affirms my sacral response.
Of course, it’s still an ongoing process, this deconditioning.
You may have heard about fractals. Many people bring it up to illustrate why some people have more impact than others. According to Rave Cosmology, at the beginning there was a great shattering of the two prime Crystals. The trillions of zillion pieces (let’s say countless) seeded the universe and we each have two such pieces.
If we freeze that moment after the shattering, we can see the fractal lines, how the crystals split and the centre piece. Mind you, the centre isn’t the middle; it’s that piece that retains the characteristics, the same potential of the whole crystal before the shattering. It is the microcosm and from here, we have the fractal lines and the flow direction of information. From the centre down different fractal lines.
Fractal lines & Impact
It may feel like we can be impacted by just anyone. To be truly impacted, however, the person contains a crystal from the same fractal line as you. The closer, the deeper that impact, whether that is to receive from them or to externalize to them.
So Human Design is about aligning us with our fractal line. This is another reason why we don’t rely on the mind to make decisions. The mind cannot see these lines and so does not know how to find these people.
The most important people to me are not the ones closest to the centre. It’s the ones closest to me on my fractal line. You see, there is no hierarchy; a crystal closer to the centre isn’t “better”. It’s only better to the one next to it. Each crystal on a fractal line is important; we all contribute to the evolution of consciousness. We are each a unique filter and we decode the neutrinos and transform consciousness. This means the information travelling along the fractal line changes, which brings me to the next sub-topic.
Fractal Line & Awakening
Human Design reminds us of “no choice.” An easy way to see this is with fractals. As we transform consciousness, awakening moves along the fractal line. Awakening doesn’t come from what we do, what we train our mind to do, or whether we are “old souls”; it’s where we are on the fractal line in relation to the point of awakening. We were all there at the beginning; our crystals anyway. We are all 15 billion years old, give or take a few in that estimate.
When we look outward, and perhaps even in our life while in our Human Design experiment, we may see suffering. We may think, “if only…” and yet, there is no choice. Awakening happens when it happens. Perhaps this understanding can help us all be more compassionate and accepting of where we all are and how well we are just watching the movie of life.
About Ra
If you frequent Facebook groups, for instance, you may have come across the topic of listening and hearing Ra Uru Hu who “brought” Human Design to us. There are passionate people on both sides. Some people struggle with him as he meanders in his lectures or with how he says things, being a Heretic (5/1 with Cross of Clarion – ah that Gate 51 of shock). An often used reason is that a person is or isn’t on his fractal. That may be the case…however, let’s consider another factor – conditioning.
We are all highly conditioned, even those with lots of definition in their design. The world is mostly not-self, still with the 7-centred strategic consciousness. Even if we’ve done a lot of self-work, that mind…that mind is so powerful and it can be sneaky and even manipulative. Our mind is wonderful in its actual role of observing, dreaming, measuring, and as our outer authority. It’s a beautiful thing.
As we are each unique, so too our deconditioning process and our own Human Design experiment. Years of deconditioning isn’t a guarantee that we are not still using our mind to make decisions and that we have completely surrendered to our body consciousness and our vehicle. It really is a continuing process. How we’ve been conditioned can account for so many things, our preferences, our beliefs, our sensitivity, our wounding…
So if we are conditioned (or unaware of it) and if we have been learning our design piecemeal with our mind, there is a danger that our mind is still ruling the roost. It may be telling us that this is not how we receive information or that this person is too gloomy and negative or that this other person is more optimistic, feminine, and spiritual. I’ve seen many people dismiss the mechanics of Human Design because what Ra has said about 2027 doesn’t resonate with them. 2027, let’s remember, is what he’s called the cosmic fairytale. Even he’s said, we will see if the mutation will take. Let’s leave that for another day.
It’s YOUR deconditioning and YOUR Human Design experiment so I’m not here to tell anyone that Ra really doesn’t ruffle your feathers and that it “should be” easy for you to listen, hear, and digest what he’s transmitting. I’m not here to argue his case. I do enjoy listening to him myself and I can understand the frustration that you basically have to listen to a whole swath of his recordings to piece things together. And yes, he did mis-speak and mixed certain terms up from time to time.
What I’m offering, as something I’m experiencing more and more, is that the most important part of our experiment is the experiment itself. It isn’t reading and researching, and that’s HUGE coming from a 1/3! I still read, a lot and I still listen, a lot. I still get readings here and there, as I respond. As I proceed in my own experiment, I’m becoming more and more humble. I’m more and more comfortable with not being certain mentally (hello there, open Ajna) and I’m more and more comfortable with not chasing every freakin’ question (hey you, open Head).
So perhaps a question is where does this frustration come from? Are you looking for certainty? Are you placing knowledge above the actual experiment? These are questions that have come up for myself.
For me, it doesn’t really matter why this or that. The mind will still continue to find reason and rationalization. That’s really its attempt to be safe, and yeah, not be ridiculed by others. My body just leaves the room. I don’t know why. My mind wants to give a reason as not to appear rude, because that’s really frowned upon and we’ve been conditioned to be polite, nice, and good.
That reason and rationalization may be pulling out specific characteristics, whether it’s a gate, our profile, a circuitry, etc.
Yet, is it?
When we are living who we are, we move beyond the characteristics. The costume that is our profile may fit more comfortably and feels easier on us. But it is still only a costume. The thing that really happens is with our frequency. It’s clearer, less distorted and our mind is way more relaxed.
Ra Uru Hu calls Gate 55, the moodiest [The Love Book]. It just never knows – I love him, I love him not. I know, I don’t know. Saying “I don’t know” is not popular. Who likes being called an idiot, feeling you’ve let down your mom and dad, friends, teammates, boss… We’re expected to know. That emptiness can be profound, which for some people, food is where they find solace. This is an individual gate, and a gate of melancholy. It’s deeply creative, acoustic, resonating to music. (This explains a lot for me – live music, from chamber music to i don’t know what – brings me to tears. The spirit is moved, this abundance, this awe, this not knowing and knowing that something is coming.)
Yet this gate is in transition. Out of this gate, we will have a new awareness. The solar plexus where this gate resides is a motor and in time, the motor awareness will be transformed/mutated into an awareness that comes from neural intelligence. It’ll be interesting when The Cross of Planning ends and The Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix” lands.
I have Gate 55 on the design sign, ruled by Mars. This is where my not knowing is. And the melancholy.
My undefined Solar Plexus has been defined via transits. First with the full 35/36 channel. Then Gate 49 connected my Gate 19 and now Gate 30 connecting my Gate 41.
With my partner having a defined solar plexus I’ve come to understand emotional authority in deeper ways. One thing I know for sure is to take time to experience the entire emotional wave. The high highs and the low lows and share when I’m ready. Prematurely sharing, like when I’m emotionally low, frustrated, sad, etc, thwarts the natural process and rhythm. I’ve learned to trust that when he is ready to share, when he has more clarity, he will. This is how as a 1/3 I’ve broken and re-made our bonds in significant ways. In the past, bonds have been broken but not necessarily remade as I and my romantic partners, friends, business partners, etc did not understand the nature of the 1/3. I was frustrated, saddened, and confused. This is one example of how Human Design has brought clarity, understanding, and acceptance for me.
So when I realized my solar plexus was defined, I observed how I felt and to sit through the emotional wave. I was already triggered by some stuff earlier so it was very challenging. It was uncomfortable, overwhelming. I thought I felt my partner withdraw, emotionally, physically. And when we spoke about it, he said he didn’t and wasn’t.
What I had known and realized but didn’t really realize was that my gates in the solar plexus are themes of how I experience definition here. How the energy flows. I have three moody gates here. The 6 is intimacy or not and what I realized, when I was in the shower (thank god for showers!), is that it was me who was shutting the door on intimacy. I didn’t feel or receive the energy because my own door was closed.
With this clarity, we had another discussion and all this stuff came up. Including how I was judged for being moody, when it was just the energy moving through the gates. Basically he said, no one will judge you for needing to say, “humanity sucks. People suck.” Well I don’t believe that. I did say, some of my ex’s suck. Their behaviour was shitty and I was tired of being the understanding person, understanding the trauma that drove their shitty behaviour. No matter the reason, their behaviour was shitty. It’s okay, my little open heart centre – we don’t need to prove I’m a good person, I don’t need to be “nice” or understanding. They may be wounded and unaware; their behaviour is still shitty.
I’m reading my 127-page Vedic Astrology report I got circa 2007. I unearthed it going through my storage. I’m on page 17. By the way 17 in Jin Shin Jyutsu is the number for Aquarius (my Personality Sun Sign), helps calm the nervous system, and brings emotional-mental clarity. 17 is located on the outside of the wrist, on the little finger side. I like to wrap my hand, with it sitting nicely on the palm of the other hand, thumb on the mound below the thumb – try it!
1 + 7 = 8, magic. Did I discover some Magic here? I believe so.
What I found absolutely fascinating how so much of it jives with my Design. The section I’m at is “What Your Soul Truly Desires.”
My Line 1
You’ll be hard to get to know. You are often seen withdrawn. This being so, it is common for people to see your focus turn inside of yourself.
My Line 3 – Freedom & Adventure
Freedom, as this Vedic Astrologer advices, is about living a fuller life, a richer life, rather than breaking standards of living or being excessively unconventional. For me, breaking standards is inevitable though I have observed my younger self pushing people’s buttons, just because. I see that in others, in my clients, those who have been unseen, unheard, unloved. Some behave radically to get attention they desire. Some do it to prove they are beyond the fray and so approval is not required or desired. Human behaviour, for me, so often comes back to a person’s wound.
Freedom is seen to being most essential for your inner happiness. You’ll thus be found loving changes, new experiences, to that of you desiring to meet new people, being involved in adventures and travels.
You will experience many changes and unusual events, but you learn best through your own experiences. Therefore your life will be full and, you will make great strides in personal growth.
Manifesting Generator
Routine can easily become a bore to you, regardless of your work or activities. Yes, you will not be at your best, if you are forced to do work or be forced, to remain in a place which is always the same.
You enjoy being involved in several projects at the same time. You’ll thus, tend to discard boring pastimes, very quickly.
The advice by this Vedic Astrologer is to recognize that I am feeling restless. Rather than releasing that energy by being rash and doing something for the sake of doing something (hello undefined root!), it will be worthwhile to channel it consciously. And to refrain from tearing things down or criticizing others! Transcending this balance, he goes on to say, will allow me to accomplish things. This is interesting, because on the one hand, I’m a 1/3, life is about bumping into things (following my Strategy & Authority) and on the other, there’s a certain trajectory if I’m not led by my undefined root, for example.
Open Heart Centre & Cross of the Sphinx
You are a bit of a heroine and thus, you’ll desire to save the world. This causes you to make promises you often cannot keep. Down deep, you’ll long to please everyone, of which I can assure you is indeed, an impossible goal.
Undefined Solar Plexus – this one I found interesting. I often see this dialogue about people with a defined and undefined solar plexus feel. So perhaps as someone with an undefined solar plexus, I may come across as a bit more “shallow”, less moody, unless I’m amplifying. Well, I do have a number of Gates of Melancholy.
You can be seen, to you being rather emotionally superficial. Yes, you’ll feel love passionately.
Oh, he advises me to wear pastels, pinks, cherry… as I look at my wardrobe of grey!
I am a 1/3 and so Line 3 features rather prominently in my Human Design body graph and my Gene Key Hologenetic Profile. At the moment, I’m looking at Line 3 from the lens of Purpose, as part of my Venus Sequence.
Line 3 is the Escape Artist as the shadow expression and the Adventurer as the higher expression. Looking at my past relationships, and even the uncomfortable moments of my current relationship, I can see those Escape Artist moments. It is my shadow pattern to just want to run away from the overwhelming emotions. I didn’t fight for any of my relationships. I didn’t want any drama. Even at those times, a simple gesture of wanting to stay would have been enough. I just didn’t.
My solar plexus is not defined and so it’s an open area for conditioning by others and their emotional waves. It is interesting for me to note how most people in my life are emotionally defined, even though statistically it’s just 50% of the population. My partner is emotionally defined and these past months, I have learned so much about what this means – the emotional waves, the highs and lows, how that impacts me, what helps me to stay in my own field and emotions, how to discern his from mine, the amplification…I shared a bit about this in another post (Open Solar Plexus, Meet Defined Solar Plexus).
Adding to this, I’m a Line 3 and he’s a Line 4 for our Purpose. According to Richard Rudd, Lines 3 and 4 are the “most obviously emotional of all the 6 Lines.” However our shadows are probably the least emotional. Line 3 wants to run away and Line 4 pretends everything is all good. I’ve seen this numbness, this meanness come out. That’s the flip side of the 4. Yet they are so loving and gentle.
If a disagreement or discomfort arises, my first go-to is to break it off. To call it quits. It’s automatic. It comes from this desire just to run away, because the emotions are so so so much. I guess I didn’t want to put any more energy or heart into something that is probably going to fail. In some ways, it just feels like commitments and stability elude me, as a 1/3, as someone who’s wired to make and break bonds. This may show up as attracting a partner who is slippery and elusive. It’s been both, for me. Of course, what I didn’t realize is that bonds can be remade even more strongly. More beautifully. Because I never allowed it, I never went there.
Thankfully, my partner knows Human Design and so he understand these things about me. We have broken our bonds many times, remaking them in a new, deeper, more transparent and authentic way. It’s taken a lot of courage to sit with him to have these conversations. He’s aware that I amplify his emotional waves, with my undefined centre. He’s aware that I have a practical mind and just want to deal with it practically, in or out, yes or no. Of course life is not so clear cut. Emotions are not so clear cut.
I’m delving deeper now also into my purpose, which is to be agenda-less, and just love and accept everything in life completely, fully. This means to surrender so completely that all boundaries dissolve. A phrase Richard Rudd used is especially intriguing and something for me to contemplate. “Fear is safe.” This is so diametrically opposite to what we’ve been taught. Imagine relaxing into that, into trusting it all.
We have been a safe space and a sanctuary for each other, for which I am so grateful, especially through the intensity of this year. He’s become my best friend and I couldn’t have asked for a better “lockdown” buddy. In this tight living space and confined lifestyle created by the 2020 conditions, we have learned a lot. About ourselves, and each other. We have both, I feel, learned more about commitment. Freedom within commitment and commitment with freedom is where we’re at, what we are exploring. I don’t know what that looks like. I just know that this relationship itself is an adventure. I am committed to being open, courageous, and honest so that we continue this amazing journey. I’m choosing as Richard Rudd says about Line 3 The Adventurer, to “stay in the room.”
Venus, the Goddess of Love and Beauty, rules Friday. Do you know where your Venus is in your Astrology chart or Human Design Bodygraph? What Gates are your Venus in?
In the Human Design System, we have a Design/Body/Unconscious Venus and a Personality/Mind/Conscious Venus. This is imprinting that takes place at the time of birth (Personality/Conscious) and approximately 88 days prior to that (Design/Unconscious). When you look at your Bodygraph, you find the activated Gates on the Design side on the left (in red, usually) and the ones on the right are the Personality (in black, usually).
While the majority of our imprinting comes from the Sun, the other planets also provide helpful information.
Gene Keys & The Venus Sequence
The Gene Keys are neither science nor pseudo-science. They are presented as a poetic exploration into consciousness that uses the 64 Codons of DNA as a mystical metaphor for the holographic code underpinning all life. These teachings are a labyrinth, and when you enter them with an open heart and mind, you may move through a deep transformation resulting in a more compassionate view of yourself and others.
Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys Golden Path
As with Human Design, the Gene Keys also work with the 64 I Ching Hexagrams and 64 Gates. Each Gate or Gene Key has three frequency bands – Shadow, Gift, and Siddhi. We find many of these shadows as part of the collective energy at the moment, to the degree that many people feel they are “normal” and even healthy.
There are different ways to work with the Gene Keys, including contemplating all the activated ones in your Bodygraph to raise awareness of the shadow frequencies in order to shift to the other higher states of energy.
We can also work with the three sequences of the Golden Path – the Activation, Venus, and Pearl Sequences. There is a fourth upcoming sequence of Harmony. The heart of this work is the Venus Sequence. You can find your free profile to see what the Gene Keys are for each of these three sequences.
If you are familiar with Human Design, the activated Gene Keys/Gates of the Personality and Design Venus, along with that of our Personality Mars are where we come to understand our behaviour in relationships. We can see here our physical, mental, and emotional patterns and coping strategies we created when young, in response to emotional field and forces in our environment. The Shadow frequencies of these three Gates reflect our core wounds. When we act from these energies, we continue to play out our wounds in our adult relationships and so we remain unfulfilled.
Otherwise, check out what your Venus Sequence is in your free profile and all this information is shown.
These three Gene Keys represent our Intelligence Quotient (Personality Venus), Emotional Quotient (Personality Mars), and Spiritual Quotient (Design Venus). The Shadows of these three Gene Keys are our physical, emotional, and mental triggers.
The lines of each of these Gates/Gene Keys provide a deeper layer. Contemplating just the Gates/Gene Keys is powerful inner child healing work. For me, it is Line 5 for all three. While they have meaning specific to the different spheres of the Venus Sequence, Line 5 is projection energy. The Saviour/Saved. My Venus is in Pisces and this makes so much sense!
When we raise our level of awareness, it becomes easier to discern our own behaviour and that of others in relationships. Even without knowing Human Design or Gene Keys.
This knowledge we transform into wisdom to better understand ourselves and have greater compassion for others. In this way, we can stop blaming other people and accept that this is just the way we learned to cope as best as we could as a child being conditioned by external forces. On some level, we all believe we are not worthy, this myth, this illusion. So when we unearth the unconscious worldview and programming we have embodied, we can begin to release its grip and reveal who we truly are.
Everything that you have contemplated up to this point has been preparing you for this – this softening and opening of your heart into the sacred wound. When you feel the tenderness of your own heart, you also come to realize that you are never alone. There is vast strength within the folds of this love. It holds up your life. In the words of the great W.B.Yeats, ‘tread softly, because you tread on my dreams’. Herein are the dreams of your heart.
Richard Rudd, Venus Sequence
Design Venus
This is where we are imprinted in the first trimester and activated in the first seven-year cycle of life. The Gate gives us information about what our physical trigger. This is our Spiritual Quotient.
Personality Venus
This is where we are imprinted in the third trimester and activated in the third seven-year cycle of life. This is what our mental trigger is and what our mental patterns we created in response to emotional conditioning.
Personality Mars
This is where we are imprinted in the second trimester and activated in the second seven-year cycle of life. This is what our emotional trigger is.
The 22nd Gene Key
At its heart however lies the question of human suffering,and it therefore has a direct relationship to the Venus Sequence. Both are manifestations of the Venus Stream. The more you read and digest the 22nd Gene Key, the more you will settle yourself into the Venus Stream
Richard Rudd, Love – A Guide to Your Venus Sequence
The Siddhi of the 22nd Gene Key is Grace. This is “Grace Under Pressure.” The Grace of the Venus Sequence.
Richard Rudd sees the 22nd Gene Key as the heart of human suffering, and through the realization of the suffering in our own life, we transform in the deepest way. The 22nd Gene Key is the “Truth of Redemption.”
It is “special within the overall matrix of the 64 Gene Keys, containing a highly specific teaching and a powerful transmission. The transmission of this consciousness alone can alter the way in which your DNA operates.” (Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys). All 64 Gene Keys are in some way impacted by the 22nd Gene Key.
It is through the 55th and 22nd Gene Keys that bring evolution and involution. There is an awakening of our genetic imprint and an invocation of spirit in our lives.
Do you have these two Gene Keys in your profile? Even if you don’t, it’s worthwhile to spend some time to read, hear, and contemplate Richard’s transmissions. The 22nd Gene Key is important in relationship work as it is “one of the most powerful emotional Shadow Gene Keys in the human genome. It is highly passionate and sexual with a huge emotional range encompassing extreme highs of sweetness and extreme lows of violence. Because of its situation in the genome it is directly or indirectly responsible for most of the relationship problems on our planet.” (Richard Rudd, The Gene Keys) Working with this Shadow, like all Shadows, is to take responsibility. In this case, for our feelings, rather than subduing them.
Both the 22nd and 55th Gene Keys are of special interest for me, as they are both part of my profile, and my Venus Sequence. Relationships is indeed an important spiritual pathway for me.
The Venus Sequence is the second of the Golden Path. Have you done your Activation Sequence which reveals your four Prime Gifts? The Venus Sequence is the core of the Golden Path and shows us how relationships is the primary spiritual path of life. Through relationships, we see our deepest shadows at work and through working through the Venus Sequence, we can transform the rough emotional waters and reveal the love that is hardwired into our DNA.
For the first time, Richard Rudd, founder of The Gene Keys, and his Deep Dive Team will be leading a virtual Venus Sequence Retreat, starting November 2, 2020. This is a 6-month journey of emotional transformation and a commitment to embody Love within ourselves and in the world. This retreat includes new material, weekly live events, and monthly contemplation themes. The team will lead participants through the Venus Sequence, step by step and Sphere by Sphere. There are six Spheres and five pathways in the Venus Sequence. If you are new to this work, an intro orientation course is included in the retreat.
You can also do the online course of the Venus Sequence on your own, as many of us do. It is a beautiful journey, a letting go, yielding, allowing process, a yin movement. If you are interested in transforming your relationships and ways of relating, I invite you to enter the Venus Sequence and I recommend joining the Virtual Venus Sequence Retreat for the depths we dive into together and the community.
Earlier this year, I joined the Deep Dive into Genius event which ran from January to May. This was a 16-week journey into the Activation Sequence. With all the live calls recorded, I have access to all the resources from the virtual retreat to return to, which actually I am doing at the moment, before the Virtual Venus Sequence Retreat begins. I highly recommend these deep dives!
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Melancholy. Seeing this through the Human Design lens is one of the greatest gifts for me. Melancholy, you see, is different from depression. We are so quick to label our blues as depression, and maybe medicating it, when it’s not that at all. Knowing this and seeing how melancholy shows up in my design and in my life is important for my mental and emotional states of being. And maybe this information can help you or someone you know.
What is melancholy?
From the online Merrian-Webster dictionary:
depression of spirits
a pensive mood
suggestive or expressive of sadness or depression of mind or spirit
causing or tending to cause sadness or depression of mind or spirit
I remember dwelling in this deep and beautiful sadness, especially in my teenage years. It comes on, without reason and without rhyme.
Thankfully I grew up with a piano. Playing the minor key pieces helped me both feel intensely and externalize this melancholy that I have yet to understand. Hearing my music weep was strangely cathartic. Because the world is sad, when it is sad, when I am sad. Then there is my journal, where I have penned many musings of pain, confusion, and reflections. And I listened to a lot of Sinead, Sarah McLachlan, Love & Rockets, Yaz… You get the picture. It was me and my melancholy. Sitting alone, fingers on the ivory keys or pen in hand. The melody, the sounds, the vibrations of the piano. Ah, the acoustics.
Without understanding what was going on, I was moving through my melancholy. This beauty, a gentle fragility, a lightness. I was feeling it and even revelling in the intensity, an emotion so heightened I knew I could soon relish in a tremendous release. That’s the thing about melancholy – you don’t know when it’ll come on, and what change takes place when it ends. It wasn’t easy, without an awareness of what’s really going on, finding reasons to explain something that is meant to pass through and channelled into mutative creativity.
I did ponder the source of this melancholy, something most teenagers would experience. The brooding moody teenager. People didn’t really understand and I felt judged. What was wrong with me? I was conditioned / programmed to hide these moods and what I thought was depression.
Melancholy is not depression. There is nothing wrong, nothing to fix. Yet how many of us know this? We want to know why we feel sad so we can fix it, so we can fix it in other people.
And so when I discovered what melancholy really is, I was relieved.
In Human Design, melancholy is the result of the chemistry that comes with Individual Circuitry. With Individual gates and channels dominating the BodyGraph, there is no greater potential in humanity than to experience personal transformation, as well as deep depression from the states of sadness that are experienced regularly.
There are always two sides of melancholy: the not-self melancholy and the melancholy of what it is to be awake. That is nothing more than a muse calling. It is a creative environment. It’s the warmest thing that you’re ever going to feel.
Ra Uru Hu
Melancholy is chemistry. Richard Beaumont sees melancholy as “an invitation to yourself to be alone” and “aloneness as a medium of creativity.” To be alone to release what is inside. Melancholy is our muse, to leave the collective and the tribe, for that creative spark. This is the role of the individual.
Individuals do not have to share what they know. But they do have to get it out somehow. And if they don’t, that same energy that is incredibly creative, and mystical and full of the very edges of the universe turns agustin them and becomes self-destructive. And those with individuality know that they are self-destructive sometimes, well, more than sometimes. Because it is quite scary to bring out something new.
Richard Beaumont
Now I understand that melancholy comes along with the creative impulse and part of individual circuitry. The Individual is here to be mutative, to bring change to the collective. With 22 Gates of Melancholy in the body graph, even if someone does not have Individual circuits or channels, most of us experience melancholy at some point. And many people get stuck in this frequency, which can move into depression.
The Individual Circuitry
For it [individualistic design], things have to come out of nowhere; ideas or ways how things get done, a poem, or a piece of music. And they usually come of of deep melancholy. The melancholy is a result of waiting, because one is not in control when mutation happens. Melancholy is a very important thing for them.
Steve Rhodes, Bhan Tugh
The 22 Gates of Melancholy
Gate
Energy Centre
Description
57
Intuitive Insight
Spleen
Melancholy through hearing
34
Power
Sacral
Frustration, not able to use one’s power in the now
10
Behaviour of the Self
G
Melancholy that no one else knows how to behave
20
The Now
Throat
Discomfort with how the world is now
51
Shock
Ego
Melancholy about lack of excitement
25
Spirit of the Self
G
Melancholy about being insignificant
38
The Fighter
Root
Not knowing what to fight for
28
The Gameplayer
Spleen
Life devoid of purpose
39
Provocateur
Root
Not knowing whom to provoke
55
Spirit
Solar Plexus
Emptiness potentially leading to eating disorders
22
Openness
Solar Plexus
Melancholy that nothing is worth listening to
12
Caution
G
Melancholy that no one is worth telling to
61
Mystery
Head
Melancholy from lack of inspiration
24
Rationalization
Anja
Melancholy over no resolution and so no inner silence
43
Insight
Anja
Melancholy over inefficiency
23
Assimilation
Throat
Frustration because cannot explain self clearly
60
Acceptance
Root
Melancholy about having nowhere to go
3
Ordering
Sacral
Melancholy about nothing is lasting
14
Power Skills
Sacral
Melancholy about having to work, or not
2
Higher Knowing
G
Melancholy because things are not moving fast enough
1
Self-Expression
G
Melancholy over not being seen as different
8
Contribution
Throat
Melancholy over not having the attention
I have nine Gates of Melancholy lit up. Out of 22 Gates, it’s not that many. However, that’s 9 out of my 20 activated Gates, which is nearly half. I also have all 6 Integration Channels, which is deeply inward-looking, as well as the Channel of Inspiration (8-1). That’s 7 out of 15 of the Individual Channels and 7 out of my 9 total channels. Ra Uru Hu has to this to say about the 8-1 Channel : “The 8-1 is rooted in the most creative, the only hexagram called creative, in that sense, which is the first hexagram.“
After I counted my Gates, I shared with my partner and he said, “that’s a lot!” Eek. He has four Gates of Melancholy himself, with one in his Design Sun, in an open Centre. I have one in my Design Sun and another in my Design Earth, both in a defined centre. Perhaps this makes a difference, that mine are in a defined centre.
For me, I channel my melancholy into writing and other creative activities. This is something my partner witnesses and he feels the different frequency when I’m in my head, “minding it out” or in my body writing, etc. He’s been deconditioning for more than seven years and he is much more attuned to the frequencies like the difference between a busy Head Centre, being pulled in many directions and a quiet one because my energy is singularly focused on creation.
My partner is also very creative. He plays the guitar and ukulele and has a beautiful voice. Being acoustic, his voice is deeply impactful and so very moving. He channels his energy into his music, drawing, and surfing. So with the fires on the West Coast and nursing an injury, not getting in the water as much has been deeply frustrating. This whole lockdown and the official global status of pandemic has been especially challenging. Not travelling, not feeling I can be who I am as freely as I thought I could before. Yes, I know, go back to my Authority. Listen to my sacral.
By no means am I purely individualistic as I do have tribal gates and collective gates and channels. However, it is also not surprising that I get melancholic. Plus that Gate 46 with a shadow frequency of seriousness. We both have this Gate activated. In Pluto, so that’s where transformation takes place and where the truth is.
I’ve been listening to Ra’s Gates of Melancholy recording, which has been very helpful. He goes over each Gate on its own, some of the channels, and how certain Gates are impacted by specific connections, such as the 10-34. For someone who has the entire Integration Circuitry activated, the focus is always looking inward and without awareness of these mechanics and of the Not-Self, melancholy can become depression. That’s also a nugget. It’s something for me to watch.
Knowing my melancholy has everything to do with my design, with my individual circuitry and the mutative process, and no other reason is pivotal. And if you feeling melancholy, I invite you to look at your body graph to see if you have any of the 22 Gates of Melancholy activated.
Contemplate on the source of this melancholy, as expressed by the Gate. Release the pressure and the conditioned need to find a reason for feeling the way you do. Some Gates, especially when not connected through a channel, such as Gate 20, can be deeply depressive. If this is true for you, look for an outlet. Put on music and move the energy through. Doodle, journal, write spiffy notes to yourself, pick up the guitar or tinker around with something. Get some alone time, to feel this without being conditioned by other energies or people’s judgment of how you are feeling and how you should be feeling. Melancholy is part of the mutative process and at some point, it culminates in a release of something that is moving through you inside, this budding and blooming of something new, for the collective.