I am a 1/3 and so Line 3 features rather prominently in my Human Design body graph and my Gene Key Hologenetic Profile. At the moment, I’m looking at Line 3 from the lens of Purpose, as part of my Venus Sequence.
Line 3 is the Escape Artist as the shadow expression and the Adventurer as the higher expression. Looking at my past relationships, and even the uncomfortable moments of my current relationship, I can see those Escape Artist moments. It is my shadow pattern to just want to run away from the overwhelming emotions. I didn’t fight for any of my relationships. I didn’t want any drama. Even at those times, a simple gesture of wanting to stay would have been enough. I just didn’t.
My solar plexus is not defined and so it’s an open area for conditioning by others and their emotional waves. It is interesting for me to note how most people in my life are emotionally defined, even though statistically it’s just 50% of the population. My partner is emotionally defined and these past months, I have learned so much about what this means – the emotional waves, the highs and lows, how that impacts me, what helps me to stay in my own field and emotions, how to discern his from mine, the amplification…I shared a bit about this in another post (Open Solar Plexus, Meet Defined Solar Plexus).
Adding to this, I’m a Line 3 and he’s a Line 4 for our Purpose. According to Richard Rudd, Lines 3 and 4 are the “most obviously emotional of all the 6 Lines.” However our shadows are probably the least emotional. Line 3 wants to run away and Line 4 pretends everything is all good. I’ve seen this numbness, this meanness come out. That’s the flip side of the 4. Yet they are so loving and gentle.
If a disagreement or discomfort arises, my first go-to is to break it off. To call it quits. It’s automatic. It comes from this desire just to run away, because the emotions are so so so much. I guess I didn’t want to put any more energy or heart into something that is probably going to fail. In some ways, it just feels like commitments and stability elude me, as a 1/3, as someone who’s wired to make and break bonds. This may show up as attracting a partner who is slippery and elusive. It’s been both, for me. Of course, what I didn’t realize is that bonds can be remade even more strongly. More beautifully. Because I never allowed it, I never went there.
Thankfully, my partner knows Human Design and so he understand these things about me. We have broken our bonds many times, remaking them in a new, deeper, more transparent and authentic way. It’s taken a lot of courage to sit with him to have these conversations. He’s aware that I amplify his emotional waves, with my undefined centre. He’s aware that I have a practical mind and just want to deal with it practically, in or out, yes or no. Of course life is not so clear cut. Emotions are not so clear cut.
I’m delving deeper now also into my purpose, which is to be agenda-less, and just love and accept everything in life completely, fully. This means to surrender so completely that all boundaries dissolve. A phrase Richard Rudd used is especially intriguing and something for me to contemplate. “Fear is safe.” This is so diametrically opposite to what we’ve been taught. Imagine relaxing into that, into trusting it all.
We have been a safe space and a sanctuary for each other, for which I am so grateful, especially through the intensity of this year. He’s become my best friend and I couldn’t have asked for a better “lockdown” buddy. In this tight living space and confined lifestyle created by the 2020 conditions, we have learned a lot. About ourselves, and each other. We have both, I feel, learned more about commitment. Freedom within commitment and commitment with freedom is where we’re at, what we are exploring. I don’t know what that looks like. I just know that this relationship itself is an adventure. I am committed to being open, courageous, and honest so that we continue this amazing journey. I’m choosing as Richard Rudd says about Line 3 The Adventurer, to “stay in the room.”